3 days in a row. i'm on some kind of high here.. or i could just be really bored while living out my mc days at home.

updates. no more fever. yay! i haven't gone beyond 37.1 since yesterday noon.

but a quick follow-up on yesterday's post, i'm grateful i didn't break at "There is a Higher Throne". that sense of deja vu is passing. it's not that i think i have that kind of a "power". rather, it's me still trying to understand why He makes me react in certain ways at certain times under such circumstances.. as if He's telling me that He's still there.. that He's still listening.. that i need to continue trusting His heart.. that i can still lean on Him..

just so i understand why i prayed the way i prayed. why i cried. why i broke down. why i still cling on to that hope and promise He gave despite the pain and the tears..

Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." - Rev 21:1-4

Lord, i believe. help my unbelief. i'm still leaning on You.

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Fyi, people, you need to introduce a new word in your vocab. ODDITY. spell it with me. O. D. D. I. T. Y. oddity, not auditee. sigh.

i'm still on mc. 3 days off work. i can sleep in for one more day.. just one more day. sigh.