had my run in with crazy and nice ppl yday.. when i say crazy, i mean lunatic. after BEC, pf and i took the mrt as usual. a Malay fella was agitated by a family of 4 that had taken up i think 4 or 5 seats 'cos the two kids were sprawled across the chair, sleeping. he started to scold the parents who obliged and gave way to him. He then seated himself down on the empty chair next to the mother and proceeded to scold her all the way from i think aljunied. when i got off at bugis, he was still scolding the couple.

if that wasn't enough, there was a ranting Chinese man who was hurling abuses at the foreign workers. everytime one got on the bus, he would start his abuses in terribly colorful english. i cringed for there were kids on the bus and the insane man was throwing out vulgarities of all sorts, ranging from the f-word to god knows what. i turned my mp3 player louder. no one fought back 'cos he was obviously mad and may turn violent.

but despite the seemingly senile and vulgar stereo-type that surround such middle-aged men who seem displeased at everything (i once had a guy who was cursing and insulting the PAP loudly to no one...), there are nice ones. when i was walking out in the hot sun yday, a mercs cab stopped in front of me. the driver offered me a ride out to the main road for free. those who have been to my house would know that the walk to the bus stop under the hot sun is a horrid affair. i was as pleased as punch (i never understood this simile anywayz..). but i can imagine david shaking his head as he reads this...

i can see that thought bubble above his head would be muttering at my seeming good fortune that strangers can be so terribly nice to me when no one ever seems to do that to him. he's not exactly a tiny girl with a charming grin... ahahahahahaha

on a side note, i'm happy to announce that after the link went dead a while back, everyone's fave geek's journal is up and running again. and it's back in my side bar until "Jason's Journal". there's a certain charming quirk abt him. in an adorably geekish way. ok. he's one of the two geek boys that i like. the other being clay aiken. and no, it's not a coincidence that they are singers as well..

and i'll take this chance to promote Yahoo's launchcast. it's where i get my dose of country music given how immensely popular it is in Singapore.. people see tim mcgraw as faith hill's husband or the cowboy who did "over and over again" with nelly. all that despite his amazing songs. if you think colin raye is good, do give other country singers their credit. it's more than just kenny rogers or garth brooks. i like garth. i also like randy travis, toby keith, john michael montgomery, keith urban.. and yes, keith urban is with nicole kidman or smth. so? it just seems so.. hopeless that the local community think of whips and mooing when you talk to them abt country music. it's not trashy unless you have dolly parton videos on repeat in your player. sighz

Yes, back to hit the books.. for now, take a break from studying and appreciate the lyrics of Keith Urban's "Tonight I wanna cry" or check out the video of my dear geek. Enjoy!
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Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way
*****

watch him shake his booty in the second chorus. even his robot towards the end ah... so cute!

In all optimism that the following was not done by a psycho stalker...

*swoon*

picture courtesy of Post Secrets.

yayayayaya... 2 more BEC classes.. after this week, stress level would drop considerably... looking fwd to the end of this week 'cos it would also mean that i'll finally be going down to listen to David Jackman. yayayaya... stress.. i want that warm chocolate cake from Sebastians (greenwood is the best man-made thing to happen in my neighborhood!). or my swarovski crystal...

it's call "snowdrop". saw it in the inflight dutyfree mag on my way back from Taiwan. i think abt it when i see the picture. still like it tonnes, even more that that diamond snowflake pendant that i saw in the diamond factory in Hong Kong. speaking of Taiwan and HK... i still wanna travel.

oh yes. anyone wanna take Intercultural Comms with me in 3b? how abt canoe polo as well? hee hee...
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There's nothing in the world or in my life, that doesn't disappear or fade away. Everything i've come to know i count as loss- compared to knowing Jesus, my Lord. -Mark Peterson "Compared to knowing Jesus"

i love my younger sister to bits. she'll stand there, hold a lizard down despite her shaking legs... just 'cos i cannot stand the icky things. despite the fact that she needs to sleep and hates them as well. i lurve her to bits..

new requirement: my bf/husband better damn well be able to kill lizards.

anywayz, got tagged by debz dearest.

Name five of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick five people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not use things that someone else has already used:

1. dark choc (ice cream, gelato or just the choc itself)
2. snuggling under the covers with my pillow during thunderstorms while enjoying a good movie on dvd.
3. baking and having people appreciate my baking
4. being serenaded to the point of crying(yesh. i'm a romantic at heart and no, that hasn't happened yet. serenaded, yes. crying, no.)
5. getting good reviews on my stories/poems (http://rivermuse.blogspot.com)

5 ppl to tag.. sher, mouse, claire, dom, xue ying. yayayaya... can i tag more ppl? david, angela and zhumei as well.. lol.

anywayz, methinks there's smth wrong with me. rah rah pok feels i've lost weight. mommsy says i'm looking rundown and thinner. but i gain weight. hm.... curious and curioser.
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hey you
could you just look my way
my feet would lift the ground
it would surely make my day
hey you
your eyes they speak to me
they lift me when i'm down
won't you talk to me please?

don't stand there and watch me when i'm bloody standing there and waiting. come over, open your damn mouth and just talk to me! that's it. i'm going to die a virgin who's never been on a single date. i don't even know if the previous statement is a complaint.. hm...

Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ. Then, whether I come and see you or only hear about you in my absence, I will know that you stand firm in one spirit, contending as one man for the faith of the gospel without being frightened in any way by those who oppose you. This is a sign to them that they will be destroyed, but that you will be saved—and that by God. For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him, since you are going through the same struggle you saw I had, and now hear that I still have.
- Philippians 1:27-30

and thus concludes the leader's bible study training. some thoughts of how the term has been...

what a great challenge it has been to focus on God in all i do.. in my decisions.. in how i carry myself.. how often i remind myself.. i look at my friends in relationships. they so easily think of their bfs/gfs.. affection.. love.. God's love surpasses all that love. bukan cinta biasa. truly not an ordinary love.

quiero saber El. Tardar mi cruz y caminar con El.

i want to know Him. to take my cross and to walk with Him.

and how often do we quickly judge people based on our tinted perceptions, thinking that they are the manifestation of the fallen man, when all we need to do is look at ourselves? let us recognize the need to no longer fall short and the fact that we cannot help ourselves. all we can do is depend on Him and respond accordingly. but i have to agree that splashing water on the ppl trying to steer the boat and pulling the heavy anchor up is higly questionable. ahahaha

the following is a poem i bought a while back from heeren and thought of sharing it here now..
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i was walking down life's highway a long time ago
one day i saw a sign that read "heaven's grocery store"
as i got a little closer, the door came open wide
and when i came to myself, i was standing inside

i saw a host of angels. they were standing everywhere
one handed me a basket and said, "my child, shop with care"
everything a christian needed was in the grocery store
and if you couldn't carry them, you could come back for more

first i got some patience. love was in the same row
farther down was understanding, you need that everywhere you go
i got a box or two of wisdom, a bag or two of faith
i couldn't miss the holy ghost, for he was all over the place
i stopped to get some strength and courage to help me run the race
and though my basket was getting full, i remembered to get some grace

i didn't forget salvation, for salvation, that was free
so i tried to get enough of that to save both you and me
then i started up the counter to pay the grocery bill
for i thought i had everything to do my master's will

as i went up the aisle, i saw prayer and i just had to put that in
for i knew when i stepped outside, i would run into sin
peace and joy were plentiful, they were on the last shelf
song and praises were hanging near so i just helped myself

then i said to the angel, "now how much do i owe?"
he just smiled and said, "just take them everywhere you go"
again i smiled at him and said, "how much do i really owe?"
the angel smiled again and said,

"my child, Jesus paid your bill a long time ago"

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don't like the shy glances and small smiles yet you not talking to me when you have all the chance in the world to do so. it annoys me. yet i'm guilty of all that. but i'm a shy girl! arrrrrrrrgh.

if you ever have the time, sit under a tree and reflect on your life.

quoteworthy now that you think abt it. despite the facts that we used to laugh at ah lim, the ex-rj prom queen (or more remembered as our physic lecturer in acjc). anywayz, going on a blogging hiatus.. blogs will be shorter and less frequent. busy in school. kind of a headache with all the work.

i haven't been in a fantastic mood. cranky due to the mere fact that i don't feel like i've done enough for my studies... then reminding myself that all these don't matter when i die... and then i wonder when the Lord's gonna call me home... and i get frus with myself for being a student more and not a child of God... for being a smucfer than God's servant, doing things for the cf instead of for God... for procrastinating and getting upset with myself instead of taking comfort in the fact that God loves me.

and yet, i'm studying like a damned idiot. "honor your parents". it just gets abt as limited as going home with good results for "face value" in my household. i'm used to it. but that's besides the point of this blog.

normally, when i get cranky, i eat chocs.. i exercise.. i read everything else but my textbooks.. i do anything but that which stresses me out. i turn to Him. don't be shocked that i cry. it's an emotional outlet for me. but haven't let it out this time round. as a result, i get giddy spells, nausea, loss of appettite.. i haven't had a good cry since the term started.

kinda just wanna walk away from all this. the evening fitness courses.. the sch classes.. just walking away from all this and returning to the basics of the world.. just getting by each day on God's grace and prayer to Him. Will i survive? maybe yes. all for me to glorify Him and give thanks for each day. then again, maybe no. all the better than i may go home as i have hoped for the longest time.

oh alternatively, hopefully God will provide me with a "Teddy" to my "Jo" soon enough.

friend: "even someone comes along your way, you too picky also no use what"

ah... i hold to the dead romantic notion of love-at-first-sight. ok. love is too strong a word. attraction-at-first-sight. and close friends can vouch that i have questionable notions of "attractive". ahahaha. oh well..
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hey you
you with the fabulous smile
you with the gorgeous laughter
can i talk with you a while
hey you
you with the charming grin
you and your silly manner
i'd like to know your name
- (C) Joseph "Budak Pantai" Wong

...and this hopeless romantic still holds to the hope of getting serenaded by the nameless one she secretly admires.. whoever and wherever he may be..