listening to JYP's "This Christmas" while having my favorite Starbucks Toffee Nut Latte. midweek bliss.

i can't wait for the decorations to be up in the Marina Bay area. for the huge ass tree to be ready in front of Raffles City..

Christmas, thank you for being my favorite time of the year every year. ^^

on friday morning, the cg decided to head to Botanic Gardens for a picnic.

considering the fact that J and I were at Butter Factory the night before, it's amazing we didn't look like death. and we were a little late because it took us longer than expected to find our meeting spot.

as with all gatherings, it was just a madcap time of sitting in the sun and talking about all the nonsense literally under the sun, including JB educating LC on the hallyu wave today, i.e., Psy's Gangnam Style. i personally like his "Blue Frog" better. nothing to do with the fact that G-Dragon was featured on it. really.

these people are mad funny. all the stories of their clubbing past during cg was unexpected but all so hilarious. and the twins. they are so small, so scary, and yet at the same time, so endearing. especially when they disappear with my flats and lose them around the house, sending me on a hunt after cg to find the missing side.

i'm just thankful J managed to drag me to her cg. it's always nice to go out there and meet new people. and here, interactions don't feel forced or fake. no weird "let's hold hands and sing songs in the dark to feel God" nonsense. no "a miracle happened to me, praise God!" weirdness. they are incredibly down to earth and real people. probably because there's a strain of AC-ness in the group. that pompous better-than-thou-in-all-things-awesome air from W.. to think i was initially worried that my humor of "omg, does this mean i'm no longer allowed to pray for the bus to come sooner when i'm running late???" was going to be taken the wrong way.

thank you, for surrounding me with all things good and bad. for the loves gained and lost. for every chapter of my life, new and old. for holding onto memories while moving on with life. for helping me to be discerning of the intentions of people and their hearts. that i find the greatest comfort in the people whose hearts beat for You.

in the midst of training for King of the Road, i get hits along the way...

like the arteritis scare..

insane food poisoning that's lasting for a week..

now an oncoming flu..


how to run next saturday? i give up. i'm going to collect the jersey and return the chip on the same day. this is ridiculous.

now i just want to be able to eat normally and exercise normally. there's only so much pocari sweat my body can deal with before i go mad without solids. and again, i would be mightily pissed if i didn't lose weight during this period. sigh.

had a nerd moment yesterday.

the boss was explaining an equation which he said so far few have comprehended. i asked him to explain it to me. and i got it. i didn't know why i got it but i got it.

not wanting it to be a moment of me pretending that i got it, i decided that it was simply algebra that needed to be broken down and elimination of double counting.

so i got to work. assigning variables and coming up with substitute equations for the huge mama line.

and i solved it.

it's really just math after all.


that simple exhilaration at understanding and solving the clockwork in my head thrilled me. i couldn't remember the last time something like that made me happy. i paused. i did remember.

first three months in JC. we got a math question that was supposed to occupy us for the entire 45min tutorial . the class either busied itself with the equation or was playing. i was working on it. i solved it. within 30 min. i showed my math tutor, who incidentally happened to be the math HOD. he stared at my answer. told me that i had just resolved a math "F" question. i was bubbling with excitement and pride and i was completely flushed with such thrill at solving something that was not meant for someone of my level.

and who knew, that was the one thing that changed my route in JC. i didn't do as well at the A's. i got my old class schedule but i wanted to take on a double math schedule which was supposed to be beyond my level. still, i went up to my math teacher during assembly where they were sorting out the classes to put in an appeal to join a double math class. he looked at me, smiled, asked me which double math combination i preferred. i told him. he struck my name off the list from my old class and added my name to the double math schedule i wanted. then he pointed to a row of students and said, "that's your new class."

stunned, i stared at him. he only smiled wider, "that's your new double math class. go along. join them."

the power of the math HOD to fulfill the silly wishes of a nobody.

i beamed and thanked him. he wished me luck cheerfully. the best day of my entire JC life.

i met up with him even though he no longer taught me. we spoke. he listened to me about my frustrations at the school system that didn't allow me to drop physics and keep my double math at the end of the first year because my dismal grades needed me to drop a subject and being a science student, i wasn't allowed to drop my science subject. which was retarded considering the fact that I passed both my math courses and failed physics. he told me to never forget my ability to comprehend equations.

i thought i had forgotten it all. but honestly, i never did. it was just hiding inside.

Mr Yeo Kim Chuan, thank you. thank you for giving this little math lover a chance in life and her best memory of her JC life. thank you.

Massively hooked on GD's amazingly unique vocals.

like Jun.K, both their speaking voices and their singing voices are different.. and all equally heart-meltingly charming. plus, both of them are dog lovers with out of the world fashion.. some that make you wonder what the hell the designer was thinking, some that just impress you 'cos you never expect anyone to carry off the look.

so it's little wonder that I'm listening to both of them on repeat.


the latest (not a new song) being Pixie Lott's collaboration with TOP and G-Dragon.

truly mad love. that insane charming nasal voice with hints of cheekiness and gentleness at the same time.



only part of the song I don't like? the lyrics. like, Pixie, GD is working hard for you overseas and you're whining about being home alone and dancing on your own? i know it's horrid to imagine that you're in a relationship with GD and you're unable to see him.. but damn woman, you're in a relationship with Kwon Ji Yong. if you don't want him, I'll take him. plus he comes with two mad adorable sharpeis. fantastic deal.