so after hobbling around for the past few days, i found a lump under my left ankle. went to see the doctor and he concurred that it's an inflammation. he then proceeded to call it a "ligament sprain" before correcting himself to "ligament strain".

that sounded odd for a while so i repeated after him, stressing that it was a "sTrain" and not a "sPrain".

i later texted a bunch of my gym buds to keep them posted since i had asked them about my injury earlier and one of them later replied:

"Where got such a thing as ligament strain"

"You should have told the doc that strains only apply to tendons and muscles"

"Ask him to wake up"


my friends are such geeks that they are correcting doctors. LOLOLOL. i love them.

Things to remember...

Analyze your behavior constantly. When you think little of others, use the same yardstick to measure yourself. You usually fall short too.

If someone tells you to change a behavior, stop defending yourself. Stop putting that person down.

Here's a wild idea. Listen.

Listen to the person. Put yourself in the other person's shoes. Don't assume that you are the victim right away. Pay attention. Usually, the person is saying that you are not the problem. It's the action you took. And that can be rectified.

So listen.

Because it takes more guts to tell someone that a behavior is upsetting you, and yet so easy to whine and complain to people who have no power to make a situation better. All you are doing is feeding your ego based on your perceptions and assumptions when you make yourself into a victim.

Remember, listen.

Check yourself all the time. Don't be a doormat but don't be too ready to argue when people are brave enough to want to tell you things to improve on. Those things could be helpful to your relationship with people.

Accept criticism with an open mind and willing heart. Be a person that others will not fear to correct because they know that you want to improve yourself.

Fucking make yourself a better person. Listen.

some times it can feel so incredibly lonely.

misunderstandings happen when people don’t listen. and these worsen when people refuse to let go of their baggage and listen.

aren’t friends supposed to trash things out to resolve matters and be better friends? Isn’t that an unspoken rule that when one is uphappy with an action, you talk to the other and talk about how to avoid that action?

Isn’t communication the most important part of friendship?

yet at these times, all I get is a sense of betrayal. a sense of backstabbing without any desire to gain more understanding.

how hard is it to see that my frustration isn’t what you did? Why do you not listen to me when I say that the problem is that you didn’t tell me what you did? haven’t I said time and time that communication is important? why do you shut me out and run around telling people that you are upset by me instead of telling me that I’ve upset you? why do you not want to resolve things between us? why do you not want to talk or listen?

maybe I was never considered a friend despite how I’ve tried to change based on your feedback of my character. the first time you saw a change in my behavior, your response was an offended “what are you up to?”. I told you that I was consciously trying to change because of what you said. and you threw me a look of disbelief, immediately assuming that I was mocking you.

perhaps I’m the deluded one. perhaps I need to start being a little more skeptical of the people around and stop thinking the better of them. perhaps I need to surround myself with those not afraid to tell me when I’m wrong and are not upset when I tell them when they are wrong.

perhaps I need to protect myself a little more.