i wish there was a clear warning a few hours before an attack happens.


or i'm going to lose my mind pretty soon.

all these little fucking mistakes that piss me off and piss everyone off..

inadequate. useless. what am i even doing besides making life hard for others.


seriously better off gone. less problems.

i should invest in laughing gas.

not that i need to be constantly smiling. the meds have been working. but if i still can't create a void where emotions don't matter, i might as well look into creating a safehouse.

assuming of course that a nice tank will be cheaper than the current meds. damn you, insurance criteria!

I wish the drugs would work much better... or at least the way I want them to.