just because people hate you because you're stuck up, self-absorbed, and self-righteous... it doesn't mean that they must or will like you again even if you try and try to keep that part of you in check.

you've ruined the relationship. deal with it. you caused it. your fault.

#truestory #iamachair #tumblrunderstands

if people can't be professional and at least respect you at work... you're probably that screwed up and should move on to another job instead of dragging them down.

thoughts.. thoughts... sigh.. just keep swimming.

i wish you could make your hate of me a little less obvious.

rediscovery of myself...

I'm generally an awful piece of trash who can't do anything right and needs people to console me after I've dragged them into hell and back.


congratulations I am officially a fucking hypocritical useless loser.

So listening to 4minute this morning when I suddenly heard..

"chikkin bogo sipeo" (aka chicken, I miss you)

brain went into overdrive. like, "wait. WAIT. WTF?"

I went back to listen to that part of "Thank You" and googled the lyrics. it was ""...kkok jikigo sipeo" ("this, I want to hold..")



I REALLY HATE THIS DUMB DIET AND 3KG. GO AWAY FATS.

at lunch today, I took a bite of the tofu side dish before abandoning it. it was then I saw that my boss had finished his.

me: how did you finish it. it was so bland

boss: used it to balance out my very flavorable bibimbap

me: but you kept adding sauce to your rice as you ate!

boss: had to balance out the tofu


i am so done with that man.

the awkward moment when the person who "secretly" hates you finds out from you that you know...

Trapped by far too many frustrating situations. Praying for it to all pass.

After all it's just work. Why am I killing myself over it?

Because it's really just work.

Right?

"When everybody's in, and you're left out
And you feel you're drowning, in a shadow of a doubt
Everyone's a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say...

When you wanna give up, and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect, God makes no mistakes...

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
That right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome, to wherever you are..."




still writing out my own happy ending.. let's see where this takes us.

maybe I should just bury my head in the ground and wait for suffocation to overcome me.

ah. fuck.

finding it hard to do anything when no one tells me or updates me on matters that I'm required to follow up on.

on the bright side, if everyone else is getting updates and not me, it should be pretty easy to leave when I do quit. since I don't have anything to update or inform because I don't know anything and they know everything.