i like walking on nights where the sky is clear... and full of stars. a romantic at heart? perhaps. it's tiny things in huge setting that make me smile.. where i get a little light-headed. i'm not talking abt a tiny diamond in a amazingly intricate design.. i'm talking about stars in the sky..snowflakes..raindrops. while walking out to dinner at adam just now, the stars were visible and ever so bright. i love nights like this. when i walked back home too, i could only gaze upon them.. thanking God for creation.

at the same time, there was a song running in my head.. aptly titled "written in the stars". sung by elton john and leann rimes. a sweet sad song that makes me just wanna lie down beneath the stars and take rest while it repeats in my ears. yes, ok, i'm a hopeless romantic at heart all in all whether i like it or not. haiz. as a friend who put it, i'm "still a little girl behind it all". ahahah..

and he complained abt my "little girl charm". abt how the teh terik uncle once brought my drink to me even though it was self-svc.. how the fish soup noodle uncle also brought my food to me when it was self-svc (when i was going back to the stall to tell him my table number, he dismissed it with a smile because he had seen me run to the table!).. and oh, a car stopped on my way back just 'cos i was looking at them. the girl in the car than signalled to me, asking me if i wanted a ride. i declined it.. but grinning inwardly. memories of how ppl just allowed me to drink almost half of their beers during patron's day.. abt how friends don't demand money from me.. how my gfs' bfs treat me to meals when i go out with the "unlucky" couple. ahahah. i guess i'm just a fortunate lady who doesn't have to flirt to get my way. thank goodness for that.

honestly, i don't ask for such treatment. i'm just myself! it's really not my fault when i unconsiously cause ppl to be nice to me. they can be evil to me for all i care. but they choose to be nice! hee hee hee.. works to my advantage even though i feel kinda bad. and how guys treat me like a total girl (i.e. they are absolutely sweet to me!) but at the same time, i'm one of the guys, one of the brudders. i don't even know if it's a particular thing i do that causes this.. or it's just me.

my dear friends, do correct me if you see me unconsciously cause ppl to be overly nice to me through my actions! he says it's my smile. is it my fault that i like smiling? i'm a generally outwardly happy person! if it's my smile that causes ppl to be overly nice (treating me like a princess), then i'm really sorry.. i cannot start to frown at everyone. ppl will think i'm mad.

but honestly.. smiling.. if it really is my smile, there's nothing much i can do about it. it comes all-so automatically to me. when i see someone whose company i enjoy.. someone i can consider an aquaintance.. i smile! who doesn't! and it gets me free beer. opps. ahahaha