been on painkillers for nearly two weeks already. going to see farzad this saturday. hopefully i'll be able to hit the gym next week and start running again. i'm just praying that there's no misalignment along the spine again. it's not life-threatening. just very cumbersome 'cos i haven't worked out since the visit to the gym more than 2 weeks ago. i haven't gone running in a while too, not counting the crazy occasional sprints to catch my bus.

why am i such a gym rat and klutz at the same time? i'm going to scream if i ever put myself in a situation where i don't do cardio or weight training for another long break (read = one month). the many times i pulled my back.. that silly broken wrist.. then the first time my spine was misaligned.. then the fall i took 2 sundays ago and is still causing my saccrum and coccyx to hurt.

i really need to stop frustrating myself like this.. sigh

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fyi: i don't like labels pegged to me by people who don't know me for me. the people that i don't worry about are my close friends. i know that while i entertain them in my idle talk abt eel skin pradas and SF varinas, they know it's just talk, mere things that i would like to own but will never indulge in.

i trust these people to never judge me based on my background. i remember sitting around with my thomas the train jie mei and i'm quite sure he was thoroughly entertained by my childhood stories by the questions he kept asking. ya know? i seriously grew up thinking everyone lived the same way that i did.

of course i'm not that naive anymore.

it's been a semi-charmed life for me. with its ups and downs. have i ever used my family to get my way? once. have i ever used my family to get ahead of others? never. i will not put ppl at a disadvantage just to get my way.

my father still holds onto that weathered family tree of my ancestors who first came to singapore. it's just amazing. the book dictates the first two characters of all our names up to generation after mine. not just my dad's side. on my mom's side, direct descendants have their first two characters literally carved into stone on my great grand father's tombstone.

but yes, the book is really quite interesting. i'm quite grateful for it. how many people can actually trace back or have bothered to trace back?