it's a fresh start. a new slate.

new people in my life. hopefully the old ones are still around.

suddenly, i'm once again unsure of what's to come. probably a good thing 'cos it helps to make me a little stronger. especially when close friends are constantly on the move and flying around. like if perry were to really go to london for six months, i'd be lost for a few days. that crazy boy's just been such an incredible friend at this time, making sure i'm dealing with this new chapter. and he was even too busy to meet for dinner recently.. just as a lot of other close friends have been too busy.

work's been tiring and busy for me too. what with the wedding coming up soon as well... even more stuff to check off the list.

this uncertainty is definitely unsettling. i don't really know where i am. i feel almost ghost-like where i make contact and wonder if people will respond to me or think my touch was just a chill in the wind.





sounds almost like a perfect time to slip away from the world and hide in my little shell. unfortunately, that won't happen until after 14 May. but getting away from it all sounds so much better than this whole sense of loneliness while being surrounded by people. time to plan a solo getaway.




in the midst of all this, i'm still praying. still praying that i'd get through this period and come out a little stronger. just praying.

(never have i deleted and added and deleted a post so much before posting. bleah.)