It's time to pick up the pace... to actually start studying... after this weekend. i'm not going to be frazzled. let's take each day at a time. but for now, the weekend's brimming with activities..

hopefully i'll be able to meet up with bryan tmr. he leaves for vienna this tues. and fk's headed for belgium. when arranging the meet-up with bryan, i got moody. two of my closest guy buds are leaving. i don't even wanna imagine how next term will be.. i need ppl around when i know i can depend on ppl to be around me..

steph.. jt.. jane.. debz.. angela.. wc.. jeri.. cy.. sen.. ford..

just looking at the names is enough to make me feel miserable. and i'm listening to "come back to me" by budak pantai.. yay.

i know that i've still got my other darlings in singapore with me. but abt 5 months without those in singapore. what to do? hibernate in the gym and throw myself into work, i guess. sidenote: called pam. she confirmed my position in kpmg. technical probs so it's delayed. so ocs lied to me.. why wld pwc throw my application out?! the sch system spat me out of the running during the techie prob. and i haven't got my pay for dec and jan!!!

i wanna really wanna travel. on my way to school, i paused to think about my summer plans. besides internship, driving lessons and marathon training(as long as my knee doesn't give way). i would lurve to soak in the world cup exp in germany, pop by the stuttgart and munich pubs for drinks and games.. make my way west towards north France and visit the eiffel tower to figure out the charm it has on others. and if budget permits, i'll head back up north towards belgium and visit fk if he's still schooling.

to go alone or not to.. i would love to walk around alone, with my backpack and camera.. to lose myself in throngs of unfamiliar faces and new sights.. but i admit that the evenings will be lonely. i won't have someone to sit with me to enjoy the night sky as we just chat about how the day had been for both of us. so eurotrip to germany and france, anyone? and ppl won't be nagging at me..

oh. something that puddings showed me while i was on duty: http://www.completeevil.com/geek.html

i swear, he practically lives to antagonize me. i don't even know why he suddenly gave me that link. but no, i'm still in my musician phase. and mouse, i concede.. all the dumbass love personality quizzes that i've done in my boredom have pointed me to someone who can make me laugh. but i want my musician! i want someone who'll serenade me and mean it for once! *pouts uncharacteristically*

very easy right? christian musician boy who can make me laugh. and oh, did i mention deep pockets? not that i'm being materialistic or anything. but i would like to drop out of sch. i wanna forgo my degree to be a tai tai. hey, all those finishing/deportment classes i went for have to account for something.

which reminds me... i'll blog abt being a Lady... one day.. soon enough...
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Qiu Ni Hui Lai (Come back to me) - Budak Pantai
i can't sleep,
your thoughts just keep on swirling inside of my head
never knew it could be this bad
i was a fool
i played too cool, i thought i was all that you had, just me
never thought i could be so sad
it seems only yesterday, so happy we two
now just look at me, alone and so blue

i was wrong, i admit it
wo qiu ni hui lai*
i'm so sorry, please forgive me
please come back to me
i was wrong, i admit it
wo qiu ni hui lai
i'm so sorry, please forgive me
please come back, please come back to me

pick up the phone
i call your home, my heart pounding, hoping that you would say
"It's ok, let's try again"
the line connects
i hesitate, i don't know if you'll give me that chance to say
"Can we start again as friends?"
there's so much i wanna say for all that i've done
but when you come on the line the words just don't come

i was wrong, i admit it
wo qiu ni hui lai*
i'm so sorry, please forgive me
please come back to me
i was wrong, i admit it
wo qiu ni hui lai
i'm so sorry, please forgive me
please come back, please come back to me

i know i'm wrong, but i ask for another chance
let me please try again

*wo qiu ni hui lai is translated as i beg you to come back.