i've been so tired recently. normally, when i get onto the bus, i'm hoping for a seat so i can rest my eyes for a while. if i'm lucky, i'll fall asleep. but during the past few nights, i'm hoping for a seat so i can knock out. and when i do, i'm seriously out cold. thankfully i'm wired to wake up one or two stops before i need to get off. but lately, it's been insufficient to shake me enough.

like the previous night? i didn't get to sleep on the bus as i was talking to gh and lt. when i was walking home, i was so terribly groggy. and it was past 12 too. after friday's durian expedition, i was really tired on the train back. so when i got a seat on the bus, i knocked out. by the time i got to my stop, i still cldn't shake myself up. yet, i was walking at top-speed home 'cos of a bangla worker behind me.

ok, i'm not being racist here. if it were a white guy.. or a chinese guy.. or a malay guy, i wld have panicked... just so happens that it was a bangla worker.. and that late at night, there are only bangla workers walking around the estate. so yar. haiz..

ate so much during the durian expedition. it was zhong, wilson, bert, ben, bk, caixia, pf, py, joan, rosh (sushi!) and weiling plus me. first stop was the beef hor fun at lorong 9. after that we went in search of durian. ok, i bluffed. we went in search of a place to sit to eat durian. it was really funny.

ben was such an uncle when he was cleaning up the seeds and shells. hilarious dude, really. a whole night of unglam photo shoots. and for once, i wasn't in any. (lai weicheng and jeri ong! no more unglam photos of me, you hear??!!??) we just laughed sooo hard.

after that, we went for rochor tau huay. ate some more.. laughed some more... by the end of the night, we'd come to various conclusions:




1. weiling and rosh look like hum chim pengs. (courtesy of mui fan)

2. bert, joan and ben all have a future in geylang.. as the bird of geylang, flower of geylang and durian cleaner of geylang respectively.

3. bert discovered that i'm at a terribly comfortable height for people to pat my head.. great.. one more person to that list for me.




yay. the "perks" of being small. ppl think it's hilariously amusing to pat your head and go "aw lor lor lor" when you sulk. ok. only my older sister does that when she's in a funny mood. oh! bought my keith urban CD! i found "days go by" and i'm deliriously estatic 'cos it's got two amazing amazing songs that i lurve: "Tonight i wanna cry" and "You're not alone tonight"

then reading the CD sleeve to look thru the lyrics, i found a little phrase on the last page which made me smile and reflect.




Life's a balance of holding on and letting go...


so may i always hold on to His truth and let go things that have kept me from Him for far too long.