ABR is over. been special..

i think it's really good to be reminded of the importance of ministry.. that's not abt self-interest. our sacrifices fail to meet the ultimate sacrifice that God had made. how we'll never match up to Him. humbling, isn't it?

the only sacrifice we can ever give is our lives. how amazing it is to be reminded that self-interest has no place in His ministry. in all our decisions, it's just so easy to seek vindication through our excuses of lack of confidence or "other options" or anything else we can find to justify our self-interest.

'cos we fail to base our decisions on what Jesus would do.

so pointless to tell God you love Him.. so pointless to thank Him for His grace.. so pointless to cry Hallelujah when we seek to satisfy our self-interest. you become a mere hypocrite.

so pointless to do good deeds... so pointless to be ethical and morally upright when we seek to satisfy our self-interest.. you become a mere legalist.

God has no room for both in His kingdom.

i thank God that reminder that He provided to the entire CF. hope that they continue to serve Him and put Him in the center of their lives. i can't answer for anyone of them.. i can't make the decisions for anyone of them. i can only hope and pray for them all, that they'll continue to make decisions not out of self-interest but for God.

pray for me as well.. that i dun fall ill.. think it's an after-camp syndrome.. the giddy headache.. the painful throat... i need some sleep.

i heard there was a secret chord
that David played and it pleased the Lord
but You never really cared for music, do ya
well it goes like this: the fourth and the fifth
the minor fall and the major lift
the baffled king composing Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah
- Jeff Buckley "Hallelujah"