I'm done with poison in my life.

I'm slowly weeding out things and people in my life. my mother always has a rule of thumb when it comes to people and things.


if it makes you depressed. if it makes you sad. if it hurts you.

if all the above aren't worth it, it's poison and it's time to walk away.


it does make sense. so many people have disappointed me, just as i have disappointed them at one time or another. so many have made me sad, frustrated, caused grief.


heck, even my bible frustrates me.


but when i think about it, some of them are worth the grief and the hurt and the frustrations. 'cos when you work through the negativity and you gain understanding and a new perspective, you become just a little wiser. things start to make more sense. you stop looking at the surface and you look for a meaning beyond what you see or you. you may not be right all the time but that's all part of learning right?



like all the other recurring analogies.. the lion. the sheep. the shepherd. olive branches. cherubs. onyx. they are things that made sense to the Jews. things that frustrated me initially. how was i to know and make the connection?

but once i started learning. once i started asking questions. once i started reading, everything fell in place. in the context that it is believed to be read in. we can never be really sure. and if so, i will work even harder in questioning and understanding. to figure if the grief, frustration and hurt are worth it.


i don't regret any point of my life where i was in contact with poison. i don't regret the times where i couldn't tell that something was actually poison. in fact, i embrace those moments with open arms 'cos it's through them that i learn and grow. and now it's simply time to leave behind the poison and move on. the negative thoughts and the bad vibes and energy.


いきましょう!