in my mood to not work and think about getting fit again (as i so often think of..), i decided to check out the local rowing teams.

alumni training is not working for me now. they train in the morning. i have class from 11.30 am to 1 pm...



Hello Gaelic Dragons and American Dragons!

they train in the afternoons. Sat afternoon rowing sessions with these teams always mean after training drinks. members also enjoy discounts at certain pubs. sounds too good to be true?

it's ok i guess. the annual membership for Gaelic is $100 each year. American Dragons is $250. simply because American Dragons provide the booze for free. guess where your $150 is going to? LOLOLOLOL

i do miss rowing. sigh.

Galaxy S3 purchased thanks to the contract renewal discount...

5% option paid up..

stamp duty settled...

15% left to pay off in November...

eagerly waiting for mortgage loan approval...

thinking of the father-mother loan that needs to be paid up soon...

i don't think i've ever felt more unsettled and settled at the same time.

but that's life, isn't it? looking forward to more excitement in the uncertain times.

now it's time to hunt down a hot Christian Jung Ji-Hoon / Lee Junho / Choi Seung-hyun / Kwon Ji Yong look-a-like. Hohohohoho~

who am i kidding? time to put aside funds for my British shorthaired or Sharpei! ^^

things are getting more and more surreal.

i will finally have the brackets and wires on my teeth by 13 Aug. (no more delays!)

my reporting officer likes and appreciates the work that i do..

and if all things go well this weekend, i will have my house.

omg, i will have my own house.

everything feels like it's falling into place. i'm already checking out cheaper options to furnish the house with in case i do get the place and the future tenant expects basic furniture like a sofa set and bed. Ikea has queen bedframes for less than $200 and www.beds.sg has bed and mattresses promos that are less than $250. sofa sets are pricer but there are cheaper options in the form of sofa beds. and i do want a sofa bed for the future study.

hopefully after this weekend is done, i'll just have to worry about whether i should get a British Shorthair, a Scottish Fold, or a Sharpei. ^^

Adele, undoubtedly, has one of the nicest facial features that I've ever seen. those large peepers and gorgeous lips. and that voice. omg, that voice.

i just can't stand her attitude to life.

she's whiney (all those emo songs.. omg..) and her take on her health is just depressing.

i love that she doesn't feel like she needs to be stick-thin. but to say stuff like that just puts me off..

"The focus on my appearance has really surprised me. I've always been a size 14 to 16, I don't care about clothes, I'd rather spend my money on cigarettes and booze."

"I love food and hate exercise. I don’t have time to work out… I don’t want to be on the cover of Playboy or Vogue. I want to be on the cover of Rolling Stone or Q. I’m not a trend-setter… I’m a singer… I’d rather weigh a ton and make an amazing album then look like Nicole Richie and do a shit album. My aim in life is never to be skinny."

i'm sorry. being healthy doesn't mean you're skinny. it just means you're healthy. you're smoking shit and drinking like mad and you're overweight. you're not big, you're overweight. i don't hate overweight people for being overweight. i worry about overweight people because i worry about their health. and i hate it when they think it's ok to be overweight and unhealthy as long as they are happy. you can be happy running 4km and enjoying a KFC meal after that.

a devil-may-care attitude like Adele's pisses me off. exercise and eating right is about being healthy, not stick-thin. you can be big but still healthy if you eat well and work out. but don't say shit like that and celebrate heart problems. really.

so i was actually happy to learn that Adele is on a weight-loss program.

i imagine her fans are going mad around the world. talking about her betraying who she really is. talking about how she's letting the media affect her take on life.

hi people, she's working out to stay alive for you. you wouldn't want her getting a heart attack from clogged up arteries from eating with no exercise, boozing and smoking right??? she's 24. the last thing i would want is for this woman to end up in the "dead at 27" club.

besides, she's looking gorgeous. probably a size 12 now. good for her and her kid!!

kudos to you, Adele! you are now truly an inspiration for waking up and getting your life on track. now may your baby remove some of the emo-whineyness from your songs. i love "Someone Like You" but when all your songs are about break-ups and scumbags that you cannot get over, you need to snap out of it.

i think i'm horridly intolerant of people with the "i'm actually a cute emo hipster" syndrome.

it's different from my I'm-awesome-nuff'-said syndrome. i admit, i'm an ass when it comes to that. i announce that i'm awesome and i announce it to annoy people for their entertainment. my 自大 and 自恋狂 syndromes are seriously for entertainment. i don't think i'm all that great. i whine 'cos i'm annoying. and i know i'm annoying when i whine. i don't seek pity.. not all the time at least. i whine to get it out of my system and then i force myself to snap out of it.

i don't know why i do that but i just do.

so this "i'm actually a cute emo hipster" syndrome needs more clarification. seen stuff like these on your fb newsfeed?

"so true!!" (proceeds to tag ALL friends)

"Me on a monday morning. yawnzs"

yes, people like that exists. we know them all. it's as bad as the gamer girls trying to use the internet prove that gamer girls don't bite console wires and act sexy by identifying the right consoles to the devices or brandnames. honestly, if you were a real gamer girl, you would scoff at these, lol at them and go back to your games.

i don't see anything wrong with sharing photos of massively adorable animals. or witty quotes. but don't  use them to put yourself on a pedestal.

not cool. not even cute.

besides, the first "witty quote" just insults yourself.. you're saying that you are drama. really? why would you do that? girls who hang out with guys just hang out with guys without announcing that they hang out with guys. why would you need to tell the world that you hang out with guys 'cos it's less drama? 'cos you want guys to think that you're cool? good luck to your gfs who have to deal with whatever situation you're trying to create.

these are the same people who take selcas drowned in instagram effects with a "lazing at home.." or "wishing you were here.." or "i'm bored.."captions. you're really just this...

minus the cat. thank God, it's minus the cat. poor cat.

don't get me wrong, i like to know more about people. i like to look at travel photos, food photos, pet photos, people at gatherings and having fun... i like updates on where people go and what people see. 'cos it just tells me of what i haven't seen and gone to..

but no. putting stuff like a bunch of emo text on a dreamy photoshopped-to-death photo out there for the rest of the world.. inspiration text, I'm ok with. but emo text? really? i don't blame it for meaning something to you. but do you really think it's that important to share with the world?

i used to be that. until i annoyed even myself. so while some things do mean something to me, i take the time to pause and think, "do people even care?"

unless it's a rant to get out of my system and to remind me of lessons learnt (case in point..), no one really needs to know.

sigh. i need to be a little more tolerant of them. not very nice to keep hating on people like that. praying to God for more tolerance... just a little more tolerance... remember.. tolerance..

finally got my molar separators in last night.

it was a strange numb and bouncy feeling in my mouth. one of the bands fell out already. so i called the rather incompetent nurse (whom i'm going to complain to my dentist about..) to schedule to fix in the band.

then another band fell out this morning. sigh.

but the pain. oh my god the pain is a bitch. the permanent dull soreness.. and the stinging pain when i bite down. it's supposed to last for 2 days. this is not counting the damn headache that the soreness is creating.

J keeps reminding me of the end results. despite her warnings of the abrasion and the metal ring, she's been a fantastic support every morning when i'm dying in the car.

i really can't wait for the stupid 1 hour procedure to stick the damn metal rings and brackets. and then after two weeks, i'll be back to eating almost normally. oh dear food that i've been craving.. all my chicken wings, fries, deep fried fish, hot soup noodles, and hokkien mee. oh hokkien mee.

sigh. the price of vanity..

between the keynote, numbers and excel files that i've been staring at..

between the icepack and saltwater rinse..

i always make time for my boys on youtube. they keep me laughing. they keep me entertained. they make me smile.

and that dream a few nights ago. so real it makes me shy. *aigoo*

then in an old video, i came across their cover of Jung Yup's "Nothing Better". Junho struggled with the high notes but when Junsu did the chorus... that voice.. *sigh* of course it helps that Shinee's Jonghyun did a gorgeous cover of it too. Jung Yup is seriously amazing during times like these. ^^



Nothing Better - Jung Yuk

It always appeared before me
Your face, I remember
My heart that stopped short
You spitefully took my disfunctional heart
And with your bright smile
That's how you easily opened my heart

It's true, that is how I became your man
All my unpleasant memories, I no longer recall
Because the hand that holds me tight
Is as warm as spring

And now like a dream my heart
Has gradually stopped by your side
Without awakening for a single moment,
I dream an endless dream

And now like breathing,
If you were to always rest by my side
If you were to always remain this way
Nothing better nothing better than you
Nothing better nothing better than you

And now like a dream, My heart
In your embrace, is held still
Without awakening for a single moment,
I dream an endless dream

And now like breathing,
If you were to always rest by my side
If you were to always remain this way
Nothing better nothing better than you
Nothing better nothing better than you

Nothing better nothing better than you

finally dealt with all my extractions today. omg, my jaw is swollen and so tired from being propped opened and operated on. today's surgery was scarring. 2.5 hours and i'm still with gauze in my mouth. can't wait to take it out and finally drink some water.

i'm definitely going to be in a lot of pain. T-T

thank god for nonsensical shows like WGM. I can always count on krabb kwon to make me laugh. may this week of working from home work out. sigh..

random gym shower thoughts..

"Atheists bash christians instead of muslims even though they share the same creation views because burning in hell for life doesn't seem as scary as being made into one of the 72 virgins."

LOL.

i think i overdo my gym routine at times. seriously going mad.

I pray, not so that people will hear me praying.

I help, not so that people will know that I'm helping.

I cry, not so that people will comfort me.

I go out of my way for friends, not so I'll get their gratitude.

I trudge on silently, not to get people's approval.

I do all those things, because You've blessed me with a heart that longs for my brothers and sisters, and that gift to help, organize and plan.



and so I ask that You comfort that same heart that's longing for recognition from men and seeking to be acknowledged and thanked by men. That I will be comforted and simply grateful that You've blessed me with those gifts to serve You.

oddest dream last night. made me reconsider things a little.

imagine a friend calls you at 11.30pm on the night of his/her birthday. you're at a client discussion meeting. at 11.30 pm. yes.

would you pick up the phone?

say you pick up the phone, you hear your friend crying.. would you ask your client to give you 5 min to deal with your crying friend for a while or would you tell your crying friend that you're in a meeting and that you'll call your friend back in 30 min?

nothing like time or odd dreams to change your perspective on things. and honestly, i don't think i would have picked up the call. i would have cancelled it and texted my friend. it is a client meeting after all.

if i had some how picked up and heard the crying... i would have taken 5 min to be with my friend at least, instead of cutting him/her off within a min of the phone call to finish my meeting. then tell the client that it's late and quickly wrap up the meeting within 10 min to call my friend back.

it's not how long you spend with your friends that matter. it's how you respond to them that matters.

which is probably why i get irked by a few of people. like, you can respond within 5-15 mins to my fb comments or IMs when we're talking nonsense.. then suddenly i ask you something and you go awol. or when you ask me to bring you to some place and when i suggest a date, you suddenly awol too.

wtf?

relationships make people happy. they piss people off. simply because relationships are about people and people, well, can be absolute douchebags, me included. still... i'm grateful. for each and every relationship i've experienced, both good and bad. everyone has a special place.. simply because I'm who I am today because of all those experiences.



i'm going to lock myself up very soon and turn into a recluse. after i get my place and my sharpei. rawr.

in light of the news about a particular church under fire for alleged criminal breach and misappropriation of funds, i expect no less than douchebag-ish comments from people who are, simply put, dicks.

i'm not perturbed by this. people fail. people fall for power. money. wealth. is it right? not at all. i hate that people fall prey to nonsense like this. it's Ren Ci all over again. it's me auditing charities all over again when the most common phrase i hear is "i'm/he's a doctor/venerable monk/faith worker... how can you not trust me/him?"

i trust that you're a person. i trust that you have your shortcomings. i trust that you struggle. i trust that you can fail everyone around you.

C'mon, look at Ponzi. seriously? he cheated his friends. you're going to trust that you know people well enough to trust that they will never fail you?

then you don't know people.

a friend aptly reminded me, "I think believers have to discern between their faith in God and faith in a person. One is infallible, the other, merely human. Justice is being served in the due process of law, no one has persecuted your beliefs."

my faith is that God will continue the growth of His church. my faith is that God will look after His faithful, using His faithful. who His faithful ones are... we trust that He knows who they are. in the meantime, i continue to strive to be His faithful one, to be one of those who'll look after my friends as they look after me as well. and if one day, i should fail them.. or they should fail me.. our faith and trust are still in God. of course, i can only hope that we will never fail one another but when that happens, i have no rights to blame God for it.

that should never change.



on a side note: a venerable and those he colluded with fall from grace and people blame him. a church founder and those he colluded with fall from grace and christians around singapore are attacked for their beliefs. logic, much?