"You become a champion by fighting one more round.

When things are tough, you fight one more round." - James J. Corbett

there's something about him. forever classic... forever evergreen... forever drawing you in with his addictive beats and vocals... forever making you want to smile and dance nary a care in the world... truly an amazing earworm

i need to dance dance dance dance dance.

你小小的翅膀 就要向我飞翔
看到你挥挥手要我过来你身旁
那可怜的目光 那故事太迷茫
就在那天晚上吹进我的心已收藏

不停想你的可爱模样 著迷的我 就连灵魂都在為你牵掛
就像醉了一样 连呼吸都遗忘
如果这就是爱 愿意跟你到远方

闪著泪光 我真不忍心 眼看著你受伤
就算一秒或是到永远也好 我都确定方向

So Baby Don’t Go
带我到会有你的地方 永远都在一起走
我们要一起飞到世界的最中心
你就在我的眼裡 哪裡都飞不出去
跟我走 你就不会消失或失踪
就像梦过的你 你是我生命 那个美丽蝴蝶

不管从哪里来 不管到哪里去
你总围绕著还会 对着我眨眼睛
沿路会有弯曲 也请你别焦急
因为爱我想什么都不需要去担心

请看看我 别躲开爱情
我一直记得你的美
爱悄悄的来到 来不及预告
爱正在进行 正准备好出发

你的回忆 连以后都会充满我的足跡
藏在脑海裡感到特别开心变成爱的密码

So Baby Don’t Go
带我到会有你的地方 永远都在一起走
我们要一起飞到世界的最中心
你就在我的眼裡 哪裡都飞不出去
跟我走 你就不会消失或失踪
就像梦过的你 你是我生命 那个美丽蝴蝶

站在街头 陌生又熟悉
就算迷了路也清晰
我会跟著我的心 因為你是我的依归
就像风 随你到处遨游 贴著风 随你路线去走
我相信爱就在我手中

So Baby Don’t Go
带我到会有你的地方 永远都在一起走
我们要一起到世界的尽头
你就在我眼中从不曾飞走
跟我走 你就不会消失或失踪
就像梦过的你 你是我生命 那个美丽蝴蝶


never thought this song would take on a different meaning at this point but i'm clinging onto hope so badly right now. just clinging on so badly.

After a mad frustrating day, I left work to get to my granny's. As I stepped off the train, Super Junior was trying to convince me through "miracle" that "life will get better".

I wanted to laugh at the timing when I glanced to the side and lo and behold... a ghost from the past was there. A very good looking ghost. He had always been an eye candy, especially during that one very trying period.

I looked skyward and smiled.

Well played, big guy, well played.

Even if my heart's still beating just for you
I really know you are not feeling like I do
And even if the sun is shining over me
How come I still freeze?
- CNBLUE's Teardrops in the Rain (Lee Jonghyun)

his enunciation was so amazing last night at the concert. it wasn't "how come I still fee" like when he first recorded but "how come I still freeze" last night. His vocals completely blew me away last night, including how ridiculously charismatic he was whenever he was jamming on the electric guitar.

when he opted for the acoustic guitar, I had a feeling he was going to play this very song. and oh goodness, that amazing amazing boy did not let me down. to hear it playing on my playlist is one thing. to hear his beautiful vulnerable voice live is just... absolutely amazing. pure goosebumps inducing and heart-meltingly sad.

Lee Jonghyun, thank you.

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
Right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home
- ONEREPUBLIC "Come home"

sweet. simple. just K.Will melting hearts all over the world with his voice, his song, and his pretty MV scenes in "You Don't Know Love".

of course it helps that it's Park Chanyeol in the MV but still, K.Will. ^-^

perfect proposal method, if you ask me. absolutely perfect.

some classics are worth listening to over and over and over again.



even if the music video is so old and cringe-worthy. but hey, Han geng!

it's a little disconcerting to have an almost-annual health scare or at least some problem that sees me visiting the hospital more than I'd like to.

there was the lump in my chest that had to be take out a few years back.

then there was the persistent nose-bleeding for days and the cancer tracker test

followed by the fracture of legends

and now, after a visit to the ENT, I've got to schedule a blood test and there's a visit with the neurologist next week. at that point, I just stared at Dr Mark and wondered if he needed to know about the current pressing headache or the palpitations from the day before.



my insurance company would be so proud of me. I need a hug. T-T

when you’re part of a big fat crazy -and I really mean psychopathic IMH style crazy- family, there’s barely a dull moment.

but no expects to be hit by a series of unfortunate events all over the extended family on all sides within 5 days.

the loss of a taxi license due to stupid acts

the loss of a good man to heart attack

the loss of freedom because the damn maid agency had its license suspended (maid for two months and counting. my evenings now revolve around the laundry and sweeping while my weekends are gone too)

the most dramatic moment being last night close to 10pm where I found myself in the porch of my grandaunt’s pitch dark house with my mom, my sister, Es, and Ade, trying to figure out why the old senile lady was MIA. and I don’t even mean senile in a bad way. the old one has been hit with dementia and is medically senile.

we went round in circles around the outside of the house in the dark and stupid Ade was freaking all of us out by saying she actually heard my grand aunt (her god grandma) call her and say she’d be down in a min. Uncle G and Aunt Joc were called to help think of solutions to find out where she was.

finally, we got the locksmith past 10pm and he started to help us break in. by then, I had time to walk home, shower, dump the laundry in the washer, and head back to my grand aunt’s. Aunt W, who was my grand aunt’s god daughter, had shown up too. by about 10.20pm, we broke into the house. the poor lock smith had bleeding fingers. I brought him to wash his hands and plastered him up while the rest of the family went to hunt the house.

at one point, we were bemoaning how the flashlights from our phones were eating our batteries as we were using them for the locksmith. Aunt W wondered how we were going to find our way around the house. I looked at her.

“are we really all that tired? we can switch on the lights once we’re in.”

there was a pause before tired laughter all around, all clearly drained by this side of the extended family.

thankfully we found the old one in her house quickly. called the ambulance. then avoided her because she was still downright nasty. my mom sent Es back to the wake because Es needed to be there. the man we had lost to heart attack was her father-in-law.

I stayed with Ade and Aunt W. I called my uncle and Aunt W called Aunt Joc to keep them posted. Aunt Joc even asked if she should come down to join us as support and if we wanted anything to eat as she would be coming from Centrepoint. But Aunt Joc stayed far from us so we told her to head home instead and we’d keep her updated. After that, Ade, Aunt W and I came up with theories as to how the old one was found in her current extremely unhygienic state of… well.. hygiene.

Mom came back and Uncle G soon arrived. then the ambulance came at about 11pm. Uncle G followed Aunt W to the hospital. Aunt W chased Ade home as Ade had to be at the church the next day at 7.45am to help with the final touches of the funeral.

by the time Mom, Ade, and I did what we could to keep the house secure and head home, it was almost 11.30 at night. Ade drove back and Mom and I walked. as we trudged upslope in the dead of the night, Mom thanked me for being there. I stared at her.

“That’s what ‘family’ is about, isn’t it? Aunt Joc… Aunt W… you’re all from different mothers… but you all still rallied around each other for Number One (that’s the old one’s nickname). Just like we were all together last night at the wake. We are family. It’s only natural, isn't it.”

there was something unspoken because while we knew our families weren’t perfect, at least we weren’t as torn or as dysfunctional as Number One’s own family whose own child can’t be bothered with her.

 

we continued walking in silence after that. to conclude the night, my younger sister dropped a message in our sibling chatgroup.

“My dear siblings, with the prevalence of dementia in our family, I foresee a future of us having dementia too and possibly lying in our poop one day. but rest assured for as long as I’m alive, I will be there to pick you up from your poop (or at least get someone else to… if I remember to…) T-T”

“This is my family. I found it, all on my own. Is little, and broken, but still good. Ya. Still good.” - Lilo & Stitch (2002)

I’ve said this before and I’ll say this again. I adore my family, even the fun extended relatives who are willing to bring us Macs supper from Centrepoint. we’re not perfect. we’re big and it’s a little crazy. but we’re still good.

yea. still good. 

I've always liked Super Junior M. with vocals like Ryeowook and Kyuhyun, what's there not to like?

thing is, I've never really paid attention to the other members, namely Zhoumi and Henry even though they are the two Chinese members in the group. but with S.M. Ballad, I'm starting to sit up and take notice of Zhoumi. his voice. omg his voice.

prompted by this while talking about packing for my upcoming vacation. pure verbatim of copy and paste.

me: i'm so torn about bringing dongxi

friend: bring la. it hasn't stopped u b4

me: Oh Sehun has a toy that he has to hug to sleep. called Pinku Pinku. and he has two rubber duckies because "showering can be boring"

me: i don't want to be like an Oh Sehun!

friend:  really? u don't want to be like an Oh Sehun?

me: i want an Oh Sehun. not to be like him

friend: maybe your dongxi can attract his pinku pinku.

friend: it sounds so wrong when i typed it out

me: please when i typed out mine.. i was silently laughing and choking to myself

friend: bring la. it's not as if i've not seen u w dongxi

friend: still remember u torn about whether to stuff him into your longchamp bag cos he may not be able to breathe...

friend: ...

me: OMG. WE DO NOT TALK ABOUT THAT ANYMORE

i need help on so many levels.