just a whole torrent of emotions.. feeling sucky now.. think a sleep will clear it all up now but just don't feel like going to bed... almost as though i'm going to float into dreamland, only to wake up the next day and be super depressed 'cos it was only a dream..

don't know why.. just wanted to see him so badly when i was going home.

his smile has a way of making me smile.. it's not the cheeky smile, but a sincere friendly smile. one that's so warm. and if he smiled that same smile to me with an unlying emotion that i'm even too abashed to speak of, i'll melt. his sweet brown eyes that compliments his tanned skin so nicely, eyes where i know i can get lost in.. and did i mention nice hands too?

i really just want to see him now.

and when the time comes for us to part ways, i know i'll be crushed. maybe for a week.

i don't want a companion for companion's sake. i want one because i know he's God-sent. i know he's God-sent, but for what purpose? to just look from afar and never speak a word to him?

nevertheless, i do want to see him again, over the weekend. but we have never spoken. unlike my other crushes where i do eventually get to know them within a week.. we have never spoken...

and i just want to see him now.