you like him 'cos he's nice to you. you have no reason to believe that he likes you. he treats the girls all the same. then it hits you. you've fallen down a little too hard.

i love and hate being a human. emotions are funny things that make life bearable and unbearable. all the frustration and anguish.. all the joy and hope.. oh well..

anywayz, smth's been on the minds of a number of the leaders.. so i pray that if you're a leader reading this, you will stop and really reflect on what i've to say next..

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we have been learning that this partnership we have in this gospel. and i value the bonds that we have all forged with each other. i understand if you have other commitments and i do not want to hold you back. if you have the peace of mind, i pray that you will take leave for that one term to rest and enjoy. but keep us in your prayers, that we will continue to be faithful servants of Christ, eagerly awaiting your return to continue in this partnership.

no one, and i repeat, no one has the right to make you feel guilty for your choices. i don't approve of certain things that are happening and how they are being carried out. to those affected by it, i really wish that things would be better for you guys. i really didn't expect things to turn out this way.
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i am disappointed with how some of us have taken action. i regret to say that i used to be one of those opposing the attitude of the first grp. but i've learnt that it's not the best thing for me as a sister in christ. it certainly does not demostrate the abounding love that we know of and shld share with one another. do not pressure one another!

we cannot judge anyone by their decisions. it's not for us to make their choices for it. even more so, it's not for us to emotionally manipulate people's feelings and make them feel guilty abt choices they have made. i beseech you, as brothers and sisters in Christ, we're not perfect ourselves. we didn't make the "right" decision. we made our own decision. let them make theirs too. stop harming the partnership that we've set up to protect the gospel. it's the gospel we guard, not CF.
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i think i've said it quite plainly for all to see. it certainly upsets me that this issue has somewhat divided us. the real pioneers of our platform created CF as a means to get to know more christians that we can encourage each other to build up this church as one in Christ. think abt it.. even the pioneer batch went for exchange in their final year! why are we doing this to one another? can't we just focus on protecting the gospel the best we can? for those staying, see it as a chance to continue guarding the gospel, helping your brothers and sisters who are not present for that particular term. they will be back eventually.

let us not be divided by something as insignificant as this and focus on the impt thing that has been won. Christ has won. let's just be good stewards k?

anywayz, the thing i mentioned at the beginning... struggling with personal emotions.. oh why do i always go for the "bad boys"? someone smack me..

pick yourself back up
fasten Diana's* belt once more
stand up
walk away

*Note: Diana is the goddess of the moon, symbol of chastity and purity. I'm in a Greekish/Shakespearish mood..