went down to client's place this afternoon. when i got into the cab, my ears grew accustomed to the familiar tune on the radio.. Robbie Williams' "Feel". i cleared the random thoughts in my head, closed my eyes and allowed the lyrics to sink in.

i don't wanna die. but i ain't keen on living either.

i honestly think that "Feel" is such an amazing song. i especially like "Angels". just don't like how Jessica Simpson massacred the song. it's just his voice. then when i came to the chorus, i think it just let it hit me for a while..

I just wanna feel real love in a life ever after. There’s a hole in my soul. You can see it in my face, it’s a real big place.

my eyes opened and i pouted. it's just a habit of mine. whenever i'm tired, i simply pout. a little ditty played in my head.. it's officially my tired song. whenever i feel a little worn out, i somehow start to hum the song. and it happened in the cab.

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell. I know right now you can't tell.

it's not the line that's repeating in my head.. but it says enough for now, i guess. like the sniffing nose and the brain cramps. yea. probably should be getting more sleep in my system. to just rest... wondering if the Big Guy up there is gonna flick my forehead soon enough and send me home resting with the flu back.. and when i say home, i don't mean heaven-home.. for goodness sake.. i meant my bed.

i need more relaxing lunches like today's..