Time Out

seriously edgy and burnt out now.. i don't know.. it's like a whole shitload of stress bundling up in me, just coursing through my body and making me very irritable. a sign to take time out to read the bible instead of doing shit? i guess.

even cutting my hair isn't working. it felt terrific (yesh, it's short again after a long time).. for the period i hung around town after my hair cut. then i told myself i had to get home to work. guess what? i'm still not in the mood to do anything. i've done what i can do for ais.. still got corp reporting and fin left. haven't even consolidated my interview with jtc to send out to my mpw mates. and i'm here blogging. the irony of it all.

and playtunes.net is not working tonight.. somehow. and it's really bleeping me out. what's bleeping? i don't know.. some word i can't think of but the best word to describe me now. bleep bleepity bleeping tired. i shld copyright the bleepings.. but anywayz, playtunes.net is not working. what does that mean? no stevie wonder. a further tosser fact is that Singapore ain't on the list of countries amazon.com sends to. how then am i to get my hands on the box set from stevie wonder? bleeping tossers. and yes, i like the word "tosser". no particular meaning but i like how it rolls off my tongue when i'm bleeping pissed. ok, bleeping is my word. i'm copyrighting it here.

but yes. no stevie wonder tonight. 'cept maybe "true to your heart" but it's got 98 degrees on it. spoils the whole feel of stevie wonder. i want the box set! (ready to throw a never seen before tantrum) and it's 11.15pm now.. estivo is closed. and i don't feel like taking more coffee or tea and alcohol's not a solution tonight. i'm whining. pissed.. very bad "me me me" blog tonight.

"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." -Phi 4:12-13

i used take comfort in the words of Paul. but tonight, "doing everything" doesn't seem to be working. the sad songs aren't working tonight either. and it's really hard to find some alone time even in a 3-storey house. bleeping tosser.

the sun will rise tomorrow, come what may

and you'll feel better than you do today

and in time you'll cry no more

i know 'cos my heart's been there before

and here i am when you need someone

my shoulder's yours to cry upon

everybody, now and then,

needs an understanding friend around

So don't shut me out

- Keith Urban "Don't Shut Me Out"

i had a dream. that i was sleeping in someone's arms. and his hands were holding onto mine. yesh, attack of the "hand" dreams again. and it's funny how i would have felt uncomfortable to be in that position in reality. but he feels like the song personified. sign of my stress and the longing for that someone to give me that security from the stressed out me. give me that man and he'll never be shut out.. ever.

ok.. i apologize for the false hopes of listening to my country boy's music. the html code's different and somehow not working on the blog. oh well.. you can still watch and listen to him. http://www.musicvideocodes.com/?song=1121 .. sighz. another nice song up anyhoo.... Maroon 5's "Sunday morning". reminds me of Jack from eic singing during meeshell's bday party. who's eic? just click on band name and u'll be redirected to their homepage. interesting band.. good singing.. now if someone can get clay aiken or keith urban to perform for me on my bday...

stressed out.. by sch as usual. typical wk 9 experience. looking forward to the april retreat to rest and grow in God's word. don't know how much longer i can prolong my hair cut. too stressed already.

the extent of my stress? notably from the songs i listen to. it's the "i'm shit stressed out, don't disturb me 'cos i'm listening to my songs" type of playlist. changed some of the content of my sidebar.. thinking of creating a new template but too lazy..

anyone remember josh gracin? fourth place in AM2? i wld. he was one of my favorites 'cos he's such a country boy. anywayz, he's got a single. musicvideo.codes has it so i took the liberty of free advertisement for my country boy. go check out my video. i think he lost weight. or rather, muscle mass. haiz. anywayz, since i'm advertising, let's just go all the way yar?

smu aiesec bash. $16 for each ticket. 2 free drinks, spa voucher and $8 ralph lauren voucher. not that the ralph lauren voucher is very attractive. my 125 ml ralph lauren blue was $110 at duty free already.. nevertheless, i think the bash will be fun. besides, it's after the exams. sms me or tag me if interested yar? btw, i'm helping a friend for this.. not directly linked to it in anyway..

i'm actually glad i didn't take that lift from jeremy. i do enjoy the conversations i have with fred while walking together. it's really different from conversations i have with others.. even with other guys when we hang out one-on-one. fred's just really like that older brother whom i can look to. even with other guys, it's just as though they are like my brudders, instead of an older brother.

but he got me thinking and talking.. abt where i was going with my life.. how best to glorify the kingdom of God. i'm just really confused now.. still need to think more about issues 'cos i guess i didn't really consider a lot of things actually. i just... haiz. let's just say for now, i dead thankful that we're justified by faith and not works.

SMU = ACJC?

don't ask me why.. but seems like a lot of guys from ACJC '02 are coming over to join the crowd at SMU. ahahaha.. ppl like kong, sonny, lemuel, lloyd, steve, james, yingwei, jian hong, liong koon, biao da, david... even poh, my cousin, is coming over. oh yes or oh no? gosh.. with so many of them.. it's practically a party at SMU now. AC unite. ahaha. reminds me of the first meeting i had in ACJC with all the mg girls.. all because an announcement was made in the morning for the mg girls to meet at the beeches. anyone else remember that embarrassingly exclusive announcement? i can't even remember what that was said to us...

why do i get such reactions when i wear a skirt? it's all the "oh my gosh! are you in a skirt?" or "why are you all dressed up?!? skirt and heels?!?" oh c'mon ppl, i'm a girl.. i'm entitled to wear skirts. besides, it's nice to look presentable for interviews. and yesh, my hair is getting too long.. the longest i've had it. chopping it off during wk 14. cutting hair is theraputical. honestly. and yet, i take such comments as they come. it's always the usual roll-eyes routine before reminding the person that i am a girl after all. strange, wldn't you think? to quote a friend from his blog abt mg girls..

"You see the any MG girl in the first three months and she's like... 'ya ok...anything' and then after the first three months when they get the AC girl's outfit and suddenly... its 'woah! come from where one!!!!!"

hm. i doubt that ever happened to me.. honestly. it's not a self-esteem issue i'm facing here. it's reality. i know i attract attention. but it's 'cos my orange T-shirts and loud laughter gets me attention. and people are strangely attracted to my brownies.. free food goes a long way, i guess. but a "woah" attention? hardly.. oh wait. never. but from the quote, you wld think all mg/ac girls have that "phwoar" factor. *black sheep baa-ing away again*

on a lighter note, i wld like to think of myself as the low profile girl in acjc. i am, right? even in smu, i have a low profile. so it must have been that way in my 2 years in acjc right? then questions start to arise.. how did my then "pikachu" know my name? we have never exchanged names. how did he know i was even in dboat to begin with?? how did my then "puppy-dog" knew i quit dboat even though i never told him that?? i.. i.. low profile right?????

i mean.. i do have friends.. and many acquaintances. but then, how wld the above mentioned acquaintances know abt my change in cca? sialah. am i too sensitive when i think someone is looking at me for no reason? take "stalker guy" on 74. i was going home with one friend once.. then she suddenly looked at me and said that her classmate was looking at me.

then she beckoned to this guy sitting a distance in front of us but he was facing forward. i did notice him looking in our direction but figured out he was looking at my friend actually. and she said it with such seriousness so i could do no more but to laugh it off and told her not to joke around. then she gave me didn't give me the "of course i'm joking" smile.

to cut things short, i started to notice him from that time onwards.. and he's normally looking past my direction quite a bit. got chio bu behind me? most prob. plus he's got a gf. gosh.

ok. fine. i do get noticed in school. but definitely not 'cos i'm gorgeous. i just.. have a unique look? ahahaha.. i'm getting hysterical. it's the stress. that's it, i'm not blogging anymore for now.

a tribute to my fantastic friends...

sunny days and starry nights

and lazy afternoons

you count the castles in the clouds

and hum little tunes

but somehow right before your eyes

the summer fades away

everything is different

and everything has change

if you feel lost and on your own

and far from home

you never alone, you know

just think of your friends

the ones who care

they all will be waiting there

with love to share

and your heart will lead you home

funny how a photograph

can take you back in time

to places and embraces

that you thought you left behind

they're trying to remind you

that you're not the only one

that no one is an island

when all has said and done

there'll come a day

when you're losing your way

and you won't know where you belong

they say that home is where your heart

is so follow your heart

know that you can't go wrong

if you feel lost and on your own
and far from home
you never alone, you know

just think of your friends
the ones who care
they all will be waiting there
with love to share
and your heart will lead you where you belong

and your heart will lead you home

(Kenny Loggins - Your Heart Will Lead You Home)

Sex is good! Sex is great! Sex is amazing! But only in the context of marriage.

What a way to start the post.. ahaha. been listening to the pure sex series from ARPC. it's interesting.. really.. that understanding whatever we do is because of what God has done. we don't live life the way we want it.. we live life the way God had intended for.. to be in perfect relationship with Him.. understanding that there's no pleasing God when u indulge in ur sinful nature.

so how can a taboo societal subject be good? how can it be gd when discussion abt it in the past was frowned upon? it's good 'cos it's God-created. God created man and woman, the idea of companionship. He told them to "be fruitful and multiply" right from the start in Genesis. there is an idea of one-ness relationally, physically, sexually and spiritually. it's the exchange of faithfulness between 2 persons for life. so why is it bad? the simplest "pastor" answer is: Man is sinful.

we've taken sex.. exploited it.. made it dirty through our worldly visions.. rape; adultery; incest; prostitution; homosexuality.. all in all, sexual immorality. explains why Bush is still president of US. the evangelical americans will not see their country embrace similar sex marriage. amazing isn't it? God created Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve.

what hit me most when i was listening to one of them was when the pastor told us not to justify our sins. the gay bishop.. same-sex marriage and claiming it's a union under God. God did not save us to let us indulge in sin. "nature and nurture" is smth ppl inevitably argue abt.. that it can be genetic even.

1 Cor 6:9-11 - And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.

we have been saved. we're cleansed from our sins, made holy and made right in His eye. we shld not be turning back to desires of the flesh. not just homosexuality. but pre-marital sex.. even cyber sex. there is no way u can justify ur sin. only God justifies. let us, as Christians, continue to help one another!

i got a shock though.. at one part where the speaker said, "Don't stay single for the fear of committment. Don't stay single for the fear of failure (major panicking on my part now!).. when it compromises your sexual life"

what relief.. ahahaha. truly, in 1 Cor 6:9, Paul writes: But if (the unmarried and widows) cannot control themselves, they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion.

i guess i was greatly encouraged by Pastor Chia when he said that singleness and marriage are both gifts from God that does not affect our acceptance.. but ultimately, it's how we use the gifts given to us. the gift of singleness? ultimately, i feel it's the ability to accept that you are single and live a godly life still.

(ouch! just scratched my wound!) it's not easy.. really.. living a godly life in this depraved world... it's really for us to be prepared to be that minority.. to turn away from the depravity, popularity and majority. we're not abnormal. we're just living lives as God's people, because we've been set free from sinful nature! my brothers and sisters in Christ, i write this as an encouragement. sure, i'm not as fluent as Paul.. nor do i possess that understanding that my dear gospel workers have.. but don't fret if you feel like you're an outcast when you don't follow the ways of the world. 'cos we're the one of the 2 races in God's eyes.. we're the race that believes in Him so rejoice for we have salvation!

to my dear "freshies".. you guys are no longer freshies! come the end of next sem, you guys are yr twos already! then, the freshies will come in and let us continually perservere in the word of God.. faithfully proclaimed the true gospel, simply and plainly, to them, aites?

to my dearest campus ministry, let us continually grow in our understanding of the word. i love you guys sooooo much and i thank God for you all! really.. at the same time, thanks for making fun day 04/05 T1 and fun day 04/05 T2 a success with your encouraging participation!

just watched shall we dance. then going to watch waterboys later. it's like movie day for me. oh well.. whatever that makes me laugh, smile and swoon is good enough for me.

Shall we dance is not flashy.. not amazing.. but wonderful enough for me. i wasn't expecting much save for the dancing bits. and i enjoy them. there was one scene, where Richard Gere's character, John Clarke, was referred to as Fred Astaire. and it's really no coincidence that Fred Astaire stared in 1937's shall we dance as well (click on the title for more info!). that was a nice touch to the film. watching it makes me want to go back onto the dance floor.. 'cept i've most probably forgotten my most of my salsa. need to go back again.. and for spinning clinics too.. to work my spin. and i would lurve to pick up rhumba and cha cha.. the sensuality of latin dance.. the total beauty of it... not entirely captured in this film but it does have amazing dance moments, like the dance between Gere and Lopez in the dim studio. incredible.

the movie in itself has sweet moments too. i nearly died when gere appeared on the escalator to sarandon while she was working.. and he was all dressed up, holding a single stalk of rose. when she asked him why he wasn't at the party, his reply was short.. and dead romantic, not mushy.

oh, because it's a dance
and to dance you need a partner
and my partner is right here

i don't know the mushy version.. this is not even cheesy. it's one of those "melt and swoon" moments. ahahahah. anywayz, i like movies that leave me with nice songs too.. one song worth a mention is Book of Love by Peter Gabriel.
***
The book of love is long and boring
No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures
and instructions for dancing
But I
I love it when you read to me
And you
You can read me anything
The book of love has music in it
In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental
Some of it is just really dumb
But I
I love it when you sing to me
And you
You can sing me anything
The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know
But I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
***
swoon.. like the part where peter gabriel sings "i love it when you sing to me.. you can sing me anything".. anywayz, got waterboys waiting for me, plus my almond magnum in the fridge. i'm contented for the night.

i like walking on nights where the sky is clear... and full of stars. a romantic at heart? perhaps. it's tiny things in huge setting that make me smile.. where i get a little light-headed. i'm not talking abt a tiny diamond in a amazingly intricate design.. i'm talking about stars in the sky..snowflakes..raindrops. while walking out to dinner at adam just now, the stars were visible and ever so bright. i love nights like this. when i walked back home too, i could only gaze upon them.. thanking God for creation.

at the same time, there was a song running in my head.. aptly titled "written in the stars". sung by elton john and leann rimes. a sweet sad song that makes me just wanna lie down beneath the stars and take rest while it repeats in my ears. yes, ok, i'm a hopeless romantic at heart all in all whether i like it or not. haiz. as a friend who put it, i'm "still a little girl behind it all". ahahah..

and he complained abt my "little girl charm". abt how the teh terik uncle once brought my drink to me even though it was self-svc.. how the fish soup noodle uncle also brought my food to me when it was self-svc (when i was going back to the stall to tell him my table number, he dismissed it with a smile because he had seen me run to the table!).. and oh, a car stopped on my way back just 'cos i was looking at them. the girl in the car than signalled to me, asking me if i wanted a ride. i declined it.. but grinning inwardly. memories of how ppl just allowed me to drink almost half of their beers during patron's day.. abt how friends don't demand money from me.. how my gfs' bfs treat me to meals when i go out with the "unlucky" couple. ahahah. i guess i'm just a fortunate lady who doesn't have to flirt to get my way. thank goodness for that.

honestly, i don't ask for such treatment. i'm just myself! it's really not my fault when i unconsiously cause ppl to be nice to me. they can be evil to me for all i care. but they choose to be nice! hee hee hee.. works to my advantage even though i feel kinda bad. and how guys treat me like a total girl (i.e. they are absolutely sweet to me!) but at the same time, i'm one of the guys, one of the brudders. i don't even know if it's a particular thing i do that causes this.. or it's just me.

my dear friends, do correct me if you see me unconsciously cause ppl to be overly nice to me through my actions! he says it's my smile. is it my fault that i like smiling? i'm a generally outwardly happy person! if it's my smile that causes ppl to be overly nice (treating me like a princess), then i'm really sorry.. i cannot start to frown at everyone. ppl will think i'm mad.

but honestly.. smiling.. if it really is my smile, there's nothing much i can do about it. it comes all-so automatically to me. when i see someone whose company i enjoy.. someone i can consider an aquaintance.. i smile! who doesn't! and it gets me free beer. opps. ahahaha

Finding Neverland on my Moving House

watched finding neverland today (click on movie title for more info). brought back many fond memories of my childhood (now that i'm a young adult...). i recall running around the garden, talking to "fairies" in the flowers, lying on the grass staring at the clouds, sucking sweet nectar from the small flowers that grew in the big bush in the old flower path at our old house. even of my make-believe games.. where i would be the damsel in distress on a pirate ship, or even a violent fighter who believed in righteousness.. from a little pig who built the house of sticks or a power ranger... the make-believe world where i could be anyone i want to be, riding on the wings of a unicorn or dancing in the midst of soapy bubbles with my pixie friends and butterflies.. finding neverland reminded me of that "secular" paradise i dreamt so often of.

it was really touching.. even more when you know that in real life, the young boy Peter commited suicide in 1960. it is also rumored that his younger brother, Michael (also the name of the youngest boy in Peter Pan. Coincidence? i think not) commited suicide at the young age of 21. there was much talk abt Peter Pan, esp on JM Barrie's sexual orientation. read it here.

this is a spoiler.. the ending was amazing.. nothing amazing about the fact that the final scene had JM Barrie and Peter talking to each other before fading away, leaving behind JM Barrie's hat and cane. it was just the effect it had on people. the whole cinema was silent. when the credits started rolling, no one got up or made a sound. the njc girl next to me wiped her eyes dry with her friend. my eyes stung too. slowly, people started to get up. there was no excited chatter or laughter. just soft murmurs of approval from the people who left the cinema with me along. everyone seemed so comforted in their quiet contemplation. when i went into the toilet, few were patting their red eyes dry. one girl was sniffing and wiping her eyes still, her friend watching her quietly.

it's amazing.. that a movie can have such an impact on people. you have to forgive me for quoting all over the place in this particular post. but andrew hartman, the webmaster of the peter pan fan, said that, "As a child, you love Peter Pan for the adventure, the fantasy, and the flying. Later as an adult, when you watch that same version of Peter Pan you saw as a child, you realize the true meaning of the story. This is the moment when you grow up."

Even in the show, Depp's character talked about growing up. in one scene, george, the oldest, said that his grandmother was strict on his mother just because his grandmother didn't want to see his mother hurting anymore. then Depp remarked that in that few seconds, george had become an adult. such a simple statement. so much truth. i was touched. i know it's just a movie. but people watch movies to escape from reality. so let me indulge in it while i sit in my dark fantasy, before i return to the blinding reality of the world around me. i'm starting to sound insane. will need to talk to someone soon..

i would have to agree. i cried when i read "Little Prince" back in secondary school. all because i found it incredibly beautiful and touching. (yesh, i'm a crier) when i told my mom that it was very touching, she did not see it so. she just said that it was merely sad. it was then i realized that adults and children have different ways of interpretation. i remember the scar my older sis left in me when she suggested that the characters of winnie the pooh were gay. i never watched winnie the pooh the same innocent way anymore. it's barely adorable when christopher and winnie talk about their friendship. saying that, i still wish i had a classic pooh bear.. those huge ones.

speaking of sexuality, there is no doubt question about JM Barrie's friendship with the young boys. i'm not going to sit here and decide the dead man's sexuality for everyone but the next quote does sum up my feelings. Nico, the youngest child of the Davies family, once said, "He was an innocent--which is why he could write Peter Pan." and yesh, johnny depp is dead gorgeous. i hereby give finding neverland a total of 5 stars, where one star comes from bringing back fond memories.

another interesting movie to catch would be Howl's moving castle. while i'm in this world of make-believe, my fallen state pleads me to return to it for one last time. it's actually a book written by diana wynne jones. saw the trailers for it today.. looks interesting enough. can't rate this yet 'cos i have yet to watch it.

and what's valentine's day without sappy movies? the ultimate one.. "a moment to remember". the typical korean movie that is bound to make ppl cry. it may seem a little far-fetched and over the top with the storyline. but it does what it had set out to do: capture the most intense emotion of love on a paper, then to bring it to surface through the show. 'cos while something like that very situation would not happen in real life, if it did, you can imagine the human mind, heart and soul doing what the character in the movie did. human emotion is just uncomprehensible. i'm renting the dvd so i can sit in the comfort of my home and bawl my silly eyes out.

Project Timothy, Ministry Matters, came to an end on the 6 of March, at abt 1 p.m. it was really a weekend of studying God's word, fellowshiping with the many like-minded brothers and sisters of Christ... all in all, an amazing weekend where i could throw away the cares of the secular world to come back to reading the word of God.

challenged.. as always.. Chris Chia, Vaughon Roberts (Von) and John Chapman (Chappo) were really good speakers. And when i say good, i don't refer to how dynamic they were and how they riled the crowds.. instead, they held everyone's attention.. simply by preaching the one true gospel faithfully, plainly and simply.. they showed the marks of someone being in a ministry, proving their point of living in line with the true gospel that we preached. much to learn from them and their attitudes. What struck me was when Chappo challenged us with love. it's so easy to not love the people you preach to. then why preach to them? why bother? this is not telling to not preach to people you don't love. rather, preach to people and love them with your all. look at our Apostle. Paul. He goes to strange lands and preaches the word to strangers. He loves them all.. evident from how he responses to them when he's far away. his many letters, addressing pressing issues in the churches, only serve to remind us that we are to love each other... to continually exhort, encourage and charge each other. amazing, really.

another issue abt evangelism was something that made me relief. I shouldn't be just asking God for courage to evangelise. i shld be praying for opportunities... understanding that God is in charge, even to the pt of telling me the time to evangelise and all.. i shld be praying for both opportunities and courage to take on myself these opportunities when they arise. pray pray...

(chong yak's the hospital. think he's having his surgery now. hoping he'll be fine at the end of it.. praying for him that all will go well. pls pray for him too..)

abt prayer, i don't pray enough. i don't place enough emphasis on the importance of prayer. it's talking to God, isn't it? and i'm not talking about nonsensical prayer.. i'm talking abt prayer that centers around God, not around me. i shldn't be praying for good grades, a nice car, house and future. i shld be praying that in every aspect of my life, i will live it in accordance to His will.. here's a challenge for christians. i dare each and everyone to pray that we live lives worthy of God... living in line with the gospel we preach, instead of hypocrisy.

what's living in line with the gospel? the bible spells it out plainly. we see it clearly that we do not indulge in "sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like". (Galatians 5:19-21) Sexual immorality?

"The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of men who suppress the truth by their wickedness, since what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them. For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities - his eternal power and divine nature - have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.

For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles.

Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator - who is forever praised. Amen.

Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for unnatural ones. In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion.

Furthermore, since they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, he gave them over to a depraved mind, to do what ought not to be done. They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, slanderers, Godhaters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; they are senseless, faithless, heartless, ruthless. Although they know God's righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they ot only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them" (Romans 1:18-32)

I do respect people's choices. but don't tell me you're a Christian when you think all those are ok in God's eyes. i agree, i do have a depraved mind. i do sin. i forget once in a while that God shld be the center of all of my decisions.. but i recognize that what i do is wrong. i recognize that i have a lot of make up for. it's not to earned my salvation that i live a life pleasing to God. it's understanding what God's done for me.. that because of His love and mercy, I shld live a life in the Spirit, now that Christ is in me.. living in accordance to the gospel i hold to, rather than being a hypocrite. so don't tell me that you're a christian when you don't see anything wrong with being a homosexual. ppl are entitled to engage in pre-marital sex or be homosexuals. all men are sinners, after all. but don't tell me that it's ok to do all that when you say you're a christian. Don't.

don't tell me times have moved on.. that i shld be more liberal. i'll show "liberal" the door. the gospel is unchanging.. it's God's word. not ours. don't change it to suit us. it was not made that way. It was made so that we'll change for God... it was so we'll understand our fallen state.. not to indulge in it further.

read somewhere that times have changed.. that women shld no longer be submissive to their husbands. let me tell ya, i do not agree.. it says clearly in Ephesians 5, that women are to submit to our husbands just as the church submitted to christ. we do not dominate the relationship. yes, i'm a girl. so? i'm not saying that we shld be doormats. i'm saying that we shldn't not rule over our husbands. same reason why pastors aren't women. don't cry foul play. man was after all, created before woman. God wills it that way.. don't change it to suit us!! i plead to my Christian brothers and sisters... pls do not read the Bible the way we deem please. read the Bible the way God wants it to be read.. with God in the center of it all. it's not by man.

And we also thank God continually because, when you received the word of God, which you heard from us, you accepted it not as the word of men, but as it actually is, the word of God, which is at work in you who believe. (1 Thes 2:13)

Take heed, my dear christians out there.. take heed of God's words, not man's. and oh yar.. pray for chong yak too.. thanks.