in the midst of training for King of the Road, i get hits along the way...
like the arteritis scare..
insane food poisoning that's lasting for a week..
now an oncoming flu..
how to run next saturday? i give up. i'm going to collect the jersey and return the chip on the same day. this is ridiculous.
now i just want to be able to eat normally and exercise normally. there's only so much pocari sweat my body can deal with before i go mad without solids. and again, i would be mightily pissed if i didn't lose weight during this period. sigh.
Friday, October 19, 2012
Tuesday, October 09, 2012
had a nerd moment yesterday.
the boss was explaining an equation which he said so far few have comprehended. i asked him to explain it to me. and i got it. i didn't know why i got it but i got it.
not wanting it to be a moment of me pretending that i got it, i decided that it was simply algebra that needed to be broken down and elimination of double counting.
so i got to work. assigning variables and coming up with substitute equations for the huge mama line.
and i solved it.
it's really just math after all.
that simple exhilaration at understanding and solving the clockwork in my head thrilled me. i couldn't remember the last time something like that made me happy. i paused. i did remember.
first three months in JC. we got a math question that was supposed to occupy us for the entire 45min tutorial . the class either busied itself with the equation or was playing. i was working on it. i solved it. within 30 min. i showed my math tutor, who incidentally happened to be the math HOD. he stared at my answer. told me that i had just resolved a math "F" question. i was bubbling with excitement and pride and i was completely flushed with such thrill at solving something that was not meant for someone of my level.
and who knew, that was the one thing that changed my route in JC. i didn't do as well at the A's. i got my old class schedule but i wanted to take on a double math schedule which was supposed to be beyond my level. still, i went up to my math teacher during assembly where they were sorting out the classes to put in an appeal to join a double math class. he looked at me, smiled, asked me which double math combination i preferred. i told him. he struck my name off the list from my old class and added my name to the double math schedule i wanted. then he pointed to a row of students and said, "that's your new class."
stunned, i stared at him. he only smiled wider, "that's your new double math class. go along. join them."
the power of the math HOD to fulfill the silly wishes of a nobody.
i beamed and thanked him. he wished me luck cheerfully. the best day of my entire JC life.
i met up with him even though he no longer taught me. we spoke. he listened to me about my frustrations at the school system that didn't allow me to drop physics and keep my double math at the end of the first year because my dismal grades needed me to drop a subject and being a science student, i wasn't allowed to drop my science subject. which was retarded considering the fact that I passed both my math courses and failed physics. he told me to never forget my ability to comprehend equations.
i thought i had forgotten it all. but honestly, i never did. it was just hiding inside.
Mr Yeo Kim Chuan, thank you. thank you for giving this little math lover a chance in life and her best memory of her JC life. thank you.
the boss was explaining an equation which he said so far few have comprehended. i asked him to explain it to me. and i got it. i didn't know why i got it but i got it.
not wanting it to be a moment of me pretending that i got it, i decided that it was simply algebra that needed to be broken down and elimination of double counting.
so i got to work. assigning variables and coming up with substitute equations for the huge mama line.
and i solved it.
it's really just math after all.
that simple exhilaration at understanding and solving the clockwork in my head thrilled me. i couldn't remember the last time something like that made me happy. i paused. i did remember.
first three months in JC. we got a math question that was supposed to occupy us for the entire 45min tutorial . the class either busied itself with the equation or was playing. i was working on it. i solved it. within 30 min. i showed my math tutor, who incidentally happened to be the math HOD. he stared at my answer. told me that i had just resolved a math "F" question. i was bubbling with excitement and pride and i was completely flushed with such thrill at solving something that was not meant for someone of my level.
and who knew, that was the one thing that changed my route in JC. i didn't do as well at the A's. i got my old class schedule but i wanted to take on a double math schedule which was supposed to be beyond my level. still, i went up to my math teacher during assembly where they were sorting out the classes to put in an appeal to join a double math class. he looked at me, smiled, asked me which double math combination i preferred. i told him. he struck my name off the list from my old class and added my name to the double math schedule i wanted. then he pointed to a row of students and said, "that's your new class."
stunned, i stared at him. he only smiled wider, "that's your new double math class. go along. join them."
the power of the math HOD to fulfill the silly wishes of a nobody.
i beamed and thanked him. he wished me luck cheerfully. the best day of my entire JC life.
i met up with him even though he no longer taught me. we spoke. he listened to me about my frustrations at the school system that didn't allow me to drop physics and keep my double math at the end of the first year because my dismal grades needed me to drop a subject and being a science student, i wasn't allowed to drop my science subject. which was retarded considering the fact that I passed both my math courses and failed physics. he told me to never forget my ability to comprehend equations.
i thought i had forgotten it all. but honestly, i never did. it was just hiding inside.
Mr Yeo Kim Chuan, thank you. thank you for giving this little math lover a chance in life and her best memory of her JC life. thank you.
Tuesday, October 02, 2012
Massively hooked on GD's amazingly unique vocals.
like Jun.K, both their speaking voices and their singing voices are different.. and all equally heart-meltingly charming. plus, both of them are dog lovers with out of the world fashion.. some that make you wonder what the hell the designer was thinking, some that just impress you 'cos you never expect anyone to carry off the look.
so it's little wonder that I'm listening to both of them on repeat.
the latest (not a new song) being Pixie Lott's collaboration with TOP and G-Dragon.
truly mad love. that insane charming nasal voice with hints of cheekiness and gentleness at the same time.
only part of the song I don't like? the lyrics. like, Pixie, GD is working hard for you overseas and you're whining about being home alone and dancing on your own? i know it's horrid to imagine that you're in a relationship with GD and you're unable to see him.. but damn woman, you're in a relationship with Kwon Ji Yong. if you don't want him, I'll take him. plus he comes with two mad adorable sharpeis. fantastic deal.
like Jun.K, both their speaking voices and their singing voices are different.. and all equally heart-meltingly charming. plus, both of them are dog lovers with out of the world fashion.. some that make you wonder what the hell the designer was thinking, some that just impress you 'cos you never expect anyone to carry off the look.
so it's little wonder that I'm listening to both of them on repeat.
the latest (not a new song) being Pixie Lott's collaboration with TOP and G-Dragon.
truly mad love. that insane charming nasal voice with hints of cheekiness and gentleness at the same time.
only part of the song I don't like? the lyrics. like, Pixie, GD is working hard for you overseas and you're whining about being home alone and dancing on your own? i know it's horrid to imagine that you're in a relationship with GD and you're unable to see him.. but damn woman, you're in a relationship with Kwon Ji Yong. if you don't want him, I'll take him. plus he comes with two mad adorable sharpeis. fantastic deal.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
I'm done with poison in my life.
I'm slowly weeding out things and people in my life. my mother always has a rule of thumb when it comes to people and things.
if it makes you depressed. if it makes you sad. if it hurts you.
if all the above aren't worth it, it's poison and it's time to walk away.
it does make sense. so many people have disappointed me, just as i have disappointed them at one time or another. so many have made me sad, frustrated, caused grief.
heck, even my bible frustrates me.
but when i think about it, some of them are worth the grief and the hurt and the frustrations. 'cos when you work through the negativity and you gain understanding and a new perspective, you become just a little wiser. things start to make more sense. you stop looking at the surface and you look for a meaning beyond what you see or you. you may not be right all the time but that's all part of learning right?
like all the other recurring analogies.. the lion. the sheep. the shepherd. olive branches. cherubs. onyx. they are things that made sense to the Jews. things that frustrated me initially. how was i to know and make the connection?
but once i started learning. once i started asking questions. once i started reading, everything fell in place. in the context that it is believed to be read in. we can never be really sure. and if so, i will work even harder in questioning and understanding. to figure if the grief, frustration and hurt are worth it.
i don't regret any point of my life where i was in contact with poison. i don't regret the times where i couldn't tell that something was actually poison. in fact, i embrace those moments with open arms 'cos it's through them that i learn and grow. and now it's simply time to leave behind the poison and move on. the negative thoughts and the bad vibes and energy.
いきましょう!
I'm slowly weeding out things and people in my life. my mother always has a rule of thumb when it comes to people and things.
if it makes you depressed. if it makes you sad. if it hurts you.
if all the above aren't worth it, it's poison and it's time to walk away.
it does make sense. so many people have disappointed me, just as i have disappointed them at one time or another. so many have made me sad, frustrated, caused grief.
heck, even my bible frustrates me.
but when i think about it, some of them are worth the grief and the hurt and the frustrations. 'cos when you work through the negativity and you gain understanding and a new perspective, you become just a little wiser. things start to make more sense. you stop looking at the surface and you look for a meaning beyond what you see or you. you may not be right all the time but that's all part of learning right?
like all the other recurring analogies.. the lion. the sheep. the shepherd. olive branches. cherubs. onyx. they are things that made sense to the Jews. things that frustrated me initially. how was i to know and make the connection?
but once i started learning. once i started asking questions. once i started reading, everything fell in place. in the context that it is believed to be read in. we can never be really sure. and if so, i will work even harder in questioning and understanding. to figure if the grief, frustration and hurt are worth it.
i don't regret any point of my life where i was in contact with poison. i don't regret the times where i couldn't tell that something was actually poison. in fact, i embrace those moments with open arms 'cos it's through them that i learn and grow. and now it's simply time to leave behind the poison and move on. the negative thoughts and the bad vibes and energy.
いきましょう!
Friday, September 14, 2012
this is toooooo rich to not share.
“If you hold something like a Samsung Galaxy S III, you can see it right away. They use cheap materials, and they copy.” - Tim Bajaran, an analyst at Creative Strategies
This was a quote from Business Week (read it here!)
how terribly professional, Business Week, to print quotes like that.
the article goes on further to say the following:
"Apple also updated the iPod Nano, adding Bluetooth, expanding the screen size, and, in a glancing nod to its past, introducing a variety of colors."
let's see the new iPod Nano.
Let's see the Samsung Yp-p2 that was first released in 2007.
the iPod nano 16GB is going for S$198. i can't find the prices for the Samsung Yp-p2. simply because it's no longer on the market. heard it was rather pricey for 16GB.
'cos they got sued and it got taken off the market?
how about the fact that the Samsung Yp-p2 first came out at the end of 2007 and was remodified for re-release in early 2008 and it's no longer carried in stores?
it's Sep 2012 now. 4.5 years ago. probably why the price for the 16GB mp3 player was probably exorbitant. plus the bluetooth technology. plus the touchscreen. my uneducated guess is that that's all extremely fancy in 2008.
i think the brains behind Apple are fantastic, no doubt about it. they are able to take old products and change them.. like smaller screens.. lightweight.. sure they give up the speaker, mic, voice recording, creation of playlist on the mp3 player and the gaming functions. that's why it's a little smaller and half the weight. less stuff in the player.
but what i really dislike are dumb Apple fans. I don't dislike Apple fans. it's just the dumb ones i cannot tolerate. those who idolise the brand. those who think that because they have an Apple product or two, they are tech geeks.
I don't think there's anything wrong with Apple stealing ideas from people. I do think it's wrong that dumb Apple fans think it's "not stealing" but innovating old ideas but everyone else that is not Apple is a bleeping thief. think about it. if Samsung really stole ideas and didn't change anything, all Samsung phones will look exactly like an iPhone. but they don't. just on dimensional aspects and grip, they are different.
just like how the new nano looks almost exactly like the Samsung YP-P2, just thinner and smaller.
back to the article, it was probably paid advertising, the same that other companies would use to sell new products. still, Business Week could have made it seem like it was objective. =.=
“If you hold something like a Samsung Galaxy S III, you can see it right away. They use cheap materials, and they copy.” - Tim Bajaran, an analyst at Creative Strategies
This was a quote from Business Week (read it here!)
how terribly professional, Business Week, to print quotes like that.
the article goes on further to say the following:
"Apple also updated the iPod Nano, adding Bluetooth, expanding the screen size, and, in a glancing nod to its past, introducing a variety of colors."
let's see the new iPod Nano.
 |
| from apple.com |
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| from cnet.com |
i'm guessing imitation is the best form of flattery? ok, it's just visuals right? how about the tech specs?
Apple Samsung
Dimensions 7.7x4x0.5cm 10x5.2x1cm
Playback (audio) 30hrs 35hrs
display reso 432x240 480x272
screen 2.5" 3"
mic no yes
speaker no yes
bluetooth yes yes
radio yes yes
game no yes
voice record no yes
wifi no no
music format ACC,MP3,WAV ACC,MP3, WMA, OGG (UMS only)
video format MPEG,MP4,MOV SVI,WMV
pic format na JPEG,TXT
playlist (mobile) no yes
playlist (pc) yes yes
multi-language yes yes
the iPod nano 16GB is going for S$198. i can't find the prices for the Samsung Yp-p2. simply because it's no longer on the market. heard it was rather pricey for 16GB.
'cos they got sued and it got taken off the market?
how about the fact that the Samsung Yp-p2 first came out at the end of 2007 and was remodified for re-release in early 2008 and it's no longer carried in stores?
it's Sep 2012 now. 4.5 years ago. probably why the price for the 16GB mp3 player was probably exorbitant. plus the bluetooth technology. plus the touchscreen. my uneducated guess is that that's all extremely fancy in 2008.
i think the brains behind Apple are fantastic, no doubt about it. they are able to take old products and change them.. like smaller screens.. lightweight.. sure they give up the speaker, mic, voice recording, creation of playlist on the mp3 player and the gaming functions. that's why it's a little smaller and half the weight. less stuff in the player.
but what i really dislike are dumb Apple fans. I don't dislike Apple fans. it's just the dumb ones i cannot tolerate. those who idolise the brand. those who think that because they have an Apple product or two, they are tech geeks.
I don't think there's anything wrong with Apple stealing ideas from people. I do think it's wrong that dumb Apple fans think it's "not stealing" but innovating old ideas but everyone else that is not Apple is a bleeping thief. think about it. if Samsung really stole ideas and didn't change anything, all Samsung phones will look exactly like an iPhone. but they don't. just on dimensional aspects and grip, they are different.
just like how the new nano looks almost exactly like the Samsung YP-P2, just thinner and smaller.
back to the article, it was probably paid advertising, the same that other companies would use to sell new products. still, Business Week could have made it seem like it was objective. =.=
Wednesday, September 05, 2012
Monday, September 03, 2012
Monday, August 27, 2012
was surfing TV on Sunday when a title caught my eye on the History channel.
"The Nazi Gospels"
"My feelings as a Christian points me to my Lord and Savior as a fighter. It points me to the man who once in loneliness, surrounded by a few followers, recognized these Jews for what they were and summoned men to fight against them and who, God’s truth! was greatest not as a sufferer but as a fighter. In boundless love as a Christian and as a man I read through the passage which tells us how the Lord at last rose in His might and seized the scourge to drive out of the Temple the brood of vipers and adders. How terrific was His fight for the world against the Jewish poison. To-day, after two thousand years, with deepest emotion I recognize more profoundly than ever before the fact that it was for this that He had to shed His blood upon the Cross. As a Christian I have no duty to allow my self to be cheated, but I have the duty to be a fighter for truth and justice… And if there is anything which could demonstrate that we are acting rightly it is the distress that daily grows . For as a Christian I have also a duty to my own people." - Adolf Hitler (Mein Kampf)
source? why, http://www.evilbible.com/hitler_was_christian.htm. where else?
so naturally i was curious. what would the History channel say about the Christian Nazis?
nothing really.
Christianity was not mentioned in the 30 mins I watched. instead, the show talked about the "Nazi Bible". one where the Nazis believed that Germans were from the Aryan race.. a master race. a word that Adolf Hitler did use ever so often.
the main character other than Hitler? Heinrich Himmler.
The Nazis believed that the Semitic people were the downfall of the Aryan race and sought to eradicate them. the Semitic people, being the Jews, brought about by some interpretation of the bible? of Hitler's own thoughts? God knows. it wasn't mentioned in the show but it's worth looking up on at a later date.
If anything, Aryans were thought of as mythical beings who were blonde, blue-eyed and strong. think Thor.
because Hitler sought to clean up the nations for God, he implemented the Final Solution. for Himmler to carry out. the Holocaust. Himmler, himself, subscribed to the Aryan scriptures. he, too, was interested in Buddhism. unsurprisingly too, I guess. Buddhism did use to be known as the Aryan Path.
As the Nazi Gospels put it, the Third Reich had actually created their own new faith. truth? untruth? it is the History channel. it's full of scholars and historians.
maybe Hitler is the Roman Catholic that he was baptized to be, or a Christian, and all these things about the Nazi Gospels is a simple conspiracy by the Church to denounce all relations with him. (i mean, look at all the psychos we had in the bible. Cain killing Abel and still having some sort of blessings. David, a promising youth being corrupted with power and lust even though God loved him. to me, it just points to the fact that men fail. we are hopeless. we are evil. we are undeserving. but that's not what this post is about.)
maybe Hitler, influenced by his Catholic upbringing, did really create a whole new faith, a cult, for the Third Reich for WW2 to happen.
as with all things, it's time to pick up the history books (Paulo Coelho, i'm sure you'll be patient with me) and start reading again. how terribly exciting. ^-^
"The Nazi Gospels"
"My feelings as a Christian points me to my Lord and Savior as a fighter. It points me to the man who once in loneliness, surrounded by a few followers, recognized these Jews for what they were and summoned men to fight against them and who, God’s truth! was greatest not as a sufferer but as a fighter. In boundless love as a Christian and as a man I read through the passage which tells us how the Lord at last rose in His might and seized the scourge to drive out of the Temple the brood of vipers and adders. How terrific was His fight for the world against the Jewish poison. To-day, after two thousand years, with deepest emotion I recognize more profoundly than ever before the fact that it was for this that He had to shed His blood upon the Cross. As a Christian I have no duty to allow my self to be cheated, but I have the duty to be a fighter for truth and justice… And if there is anything which could demonstrate that we are acting rightly it is the distress that daily grows . For as a Christian I have also a duty to my own people." - Adolf Hitler (Mein Kampf)
source? why, http://www.evilbible.com/hitler_was_christian.htm. where else?
so naturally i was curious. what would the History channel say about the Christian Nazis?
nothing really.
Christianity was not mentioned in the 30 mins I watched. instead, the show talked about the "Nazi Bible". one where the Nazis believed that Germans were from the Aryan race.. a master race. a word that Adolf Hitler did use ever so often.
the main character other than Hitler? Heinrich Himmler.
The Nazis believed that the Semitic people were the downfall of the Aryan race and sought to eradicate them. the Semitic people, being the Jews, brought about by some interpretation of the bible? of Hitler's own thoughts? God knows. it wasn't mentioned in the show but it's worth looking up on at a later date.
If anything, Aryans were thought of as mythical beings who were blonde, blue-eyed and strong. think Thor.
because Hitler sought to clean up the nations for God, he implemented the Final Solution. for Himmler to carry out. the Holocaust. Himmler, himself, subscribed to the Aryan scriptures. he, too, was interested in Buddhism. unsurprisingly too, I guess. Buddhism did use to be known as the Aryan Path.
As the Nazi Gospels put it, the Third Reich had actually created their own new faith. truth? untruth? it is the History channel. it's full of scholars and historians.
maybe Hitler is the Roman Catholic that he was baptized to be, or a Christian, and all these things about the Nazi Gospels is a simple conspiracy by the Church to denounce all relations with him. (i mean, look at all the psychos we had in the bible. Cain killing Abel and still having some sort of blessings. David, a promising youth being corrupted with power and lust even though God loved him. to me, it just points to the fact that men fail. we are hopeless. we are evil. we are undeserving. but that's not what this post is about.)
maybe Hitler, influenced by his Catholic upbringing, did really create a whole new faith, a cult, for the Third Reich for WW2 to happen.
as with all things, it's time to pick up the history books (Paulo Coelho, i'm sure you'll be patient with me) and start reading again. how terribly exciting. ^-^
Friday, August 24, 2012
in my mood to not work and think about getting fit again (as i so often think of..), i decided to check out the local rowing teams.
alumni training is not working for me now. they train in the morning. i have class from 11.30 am to 1 pm...
Hello Gaelic Dragons and American Dragons!
they train in the afternoons. Sat afternoon rowing sessions with these teams always mean after training drinks. members also enjoy discounts at certain pubs. sounds too good to be true?
it's ok i guess. the annual membership for Gaelic is $100 each year. American Dragons is $250. simply because American Dragons provide the booze for free. guess where your $150 is going to? LOLOLOLOL
i do miss rowing. sigh.
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Galaxy S3 purchased thanks to the contract renewal discount...
5% option paid up..
stamp duty settled...
15% left to pay off in November...
eagerly waiting for mortgage loan approval...
thinking of the father-mother loan that needs to be paid up soon...
i don't think i've ever felt more unsettled and settled at the same time.
but that's life, isn't it? looking forward to more excitement in the uncertain times.
now it's time to hunt down a hot Christian Jung Ji-Hoon / Lee Junho / Choi Seung-hyun / Kwon Ji Yong look-a-like. Hohohohoho~
who am i kidding? time to put aside funds for my British shorthaired or Sharpei! ^^
Thursday, August 02, 2012
things are getting more and more surreal.
i will finally have the brackets and wires on my teeth by 13 Aug. (no more delays!)
my reporting officer likes and appreciates the work that i do..
and if all things go well this weekend, i will have my house.
omg, i will have my own house.
everything feels like it's falling into place. i'm already checking out cheaper options to furnish the house with in case i do get the place and the future tenant expects basic furniture like a sofa set and bed. Ikea has queen bedframes for less than $200 and www.beds.sg has bed and mattresses promos that are less than $250. sofa sets are pricer but there are cheaper options in the form of sofa beds. and i do want a sofa bed for the future study.
hopefully after this weekend is done, i'll just have to worry about whether i should get a British Shorthair, a Scottish Fold, or a Sharpei. ^^
i will finally have the brackets and wires on my teeth by 13 Aug. (no more delays!)
my reporting officer likes and appreciates the work that i do..
and if all things go well this weekend, i will have my house.
omg, i will have my own house.
everything feels like it's falling into place. i'm already checking out cheaper options to furnish the house with in case i do get the place and the future tenant expects basic furniture like a sofa set and bed. Ikea has queen bedframes for less than $200 and www.beds.sg has bed and mattresses promos that are less than $250. sofa sets are pricer but there are cheaper options in the form of sofa beds. and i do want a sofa bed for the future study.
hopefully after this weekend is done, i'll just have to worry about whether i should get a British Shorthair, a Scottish Fold, or a Sharpei. ^^
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Adele, undoubtedly, has one of the nicest facial features that I've ever seen. those large peepers and gorgeous lips. and that voice. omg, that voice.
i just can't stand her attitude to life.
she's whiney (all those emo songs.. omg..) and her take on her health is just depressing.
i love that she doesn't feel like she needs to be stick-thin. but to say stuff like that just puts me off..
"The focus on my appearance has really surprised me. I've always been a size 14 to 16, I don't care about clothes, I'd rather spend my money on cigarettes and booze."
"I love food and hate exercise. I don’t have time to work out… I don’t want to be on the cover of Playboy or Vogue. I want to be on the cover of Rolling Stone or Q. I’m not a trend-setter… I’m a singer… I’d rather weigh a ton and make an amazing album then look like Nicole Richie and do a shit album. My aim in life is never to be skinny."
i'm sorry. being healthy doesn't mean you're skinny. it just means you're healthy. you're smoking shit and drinking like mad and you're overweight. you're not big, you're overweight. i don't hate overweight people for being overweight. i worry about overweight people because i worry about their health. and i hate it when they think it's ok to be overweight and unhealthy as long as they are happy. you can be happy running 4km and enjoying a KFC meal after that.
a devil-may-care attitude like Adele's pisses me off. exercise and eating right is about being healthy, not stick-thin. you can be big but still healthy if you eat well and work out. but don't say shit like that and celebrate heart problems. really.
so i was actually happy to learn that Adele is on a weight-loss program.
i imagine her fans are going mad around the world. talking about her betraying who she really is. talking about how she's letting the media affect her take on life.
hi people, she's working out to stay alive for you. you wouldn't want her getting a heart attack from clogged up arteries from eating with no exercise, boozing and smoking right??? she's 24. the last thing i would want is for this woman to end up in the "dead at 27" club.
besides, she's looking gorgeous. probably a size 12 now. good for her and her kid!!
kudos to you, Adele! you are now truly an inspiration for waking up and getting your life on track. now may your baby remove some of the emo-whineyness from your songs. i love "Someone Like You" but when all your songs are about break-ups and scumbags that you cannot get over, you need to snap out of it.
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