oh ho ho ho ho. i'm screwed. got a presentation on monday. fin. and my throat's about to give up on me. especially after my attempts at "yi du gong du" (fighting poison with poison).. samy's curry. and i didn't eat spicy curry at all.. only yellow rice, tandoori chicken, a small piece of chicken tikki and curry cabbage which is not spicy. felt so sad.. watching fred, dave and cy scoff down their mutton curry.. and the way fred waved the chicken masala away! come back, i say, come back! what a time to go samy's.

and i've been trying everything to smooth that voice box.. hot honey.. hot honey tea.. honey lemon.. pi pa gao.. strepsils.. clorets (doesn't make sense i know).. robitussin honey cough drop.. fisherman's friend.. now got bitter herbal tea. and as if to spite me, my throat convince my body to increase its temperature and my nose to drip. stupid stupid. plus my fin, corp reporting and mpw reports are due next week. what a time to fall sick! so sian.. *sniff sniff cough*

so many of my friends are going overseas on my bday.. ppl ppl.. jialat.. mich lee, wc and amy got their summer study. dave's got internship. debz, gwen, edwin, jing ting and i think sher too, all have work and travel. to have or not to have a party? and i've got enough of acjc/smu parties that don't work out. haiz.

and oh.. revelation. i've been coping without an emotional outlet.. relatively happier too. strange right? nope. it's not strange. i've come to terms that i don't need an emotional outlet. i used to need one as i put confidence in me to set my life straight. not anymore.. now that i've learnt to put all and i mean all my confidence in God. a friend once quoted phi 4:13 for me.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

words of consolation? sure. but wrong. you don't just pull one verse out of the bible to suit your situation. read 4:12 and it tells you:

I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.

you can be content in whatever situation you have! Christ does not give you strength to finish your work in an hour.. Christ does not give you the strength to create wealth in times of poverty. What He gives is the strength to go through each day.. to be content with what we have to use it to our best. that's the strength Christ gives. i mean, if we were to think that Christ gives us strength to do anything, none of the apostles would have been behind bars, wld they? no. instead, they were content and used every opportunity to still glorify him.

The crowd joined in the attack against Paul and Silas, and the magistrates ordered them to be stripped and beaten. After they had been severely flogged, they were thrown into prison, and the jailer was commanded to guard them carefully. Upon receiving such orders, he put them in the inner cell and fastened their feet in the stocks.

About midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the other prisoners were listening to them. Suddenly there was such a violent earthquake that the foundations of the prison were shaken. At once all the prison doors flew open, and everybody's chains came loose. The jailer woke up, and when he saw the prison doors open, he drew his sword and was about to kill himself because he thought the prisoners had escaped. But Paul shouted, "Don't harm yourself! We are all here!" The jailer called for lights, rushed in and fell trembling before Paul and Silas. He then brought them out and asked, "Sirs, what must I do to be saved?"

They replied, "Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved-you and your household." Then they spoke the word of the Lord to him and to all the others in his house. At that hour of the night the jailer took them and washed their wounds; then immediately he and all his family were baptized. The jailer brought them into his house and set a meal before them; he was filled with joy because he had come to believe in God-he and his whole family.

Acts 16: 22-34

now how's that for words of consolation!! =] btw, anyone's got all 11 books of the utterly dreadful lemony snicket's series of unfortunate events? (side bar is updated again!)