How do you know that you are beyond hope?

When even your apology gets shared and mocked at with no reply to you.

Things would really be a lot better for everyone if I didn't exist. If my family didn't have to deal with my mental disorder. If my friends didn't have to put up with my bothersome whines and rants. If my therapist doesn't have to waste anymore time on me. If my colleagues didn't have to bother cleaning up all my fucking mess all the fucking time because I'm just an incompetent shithead.


Yea. Things would really be better if I weren't around at all. So tired of trying... So maybe it's time to stop trying.

Probably the moment of revelation everyone has been waiting for. Not too late to stop trying.