mini rant.

feels like the salem witch trials here where every little thing I do gets scrutinise for the purposes of finding ways to burn me at stake. and of which, none of my actions are clarified with me but through whispers among people who don't want to talk to me.

i understand scepticism and i respect it in a professional manner. i know the need of it to ensure accuracy.

but when it is abused just to satisfy a person's need to prove that someone else is wrong, to prove that someone else has screwed up, to affirm your own belief that the other person will never ever be right in anything and everything he or she does...

to me, that's not professional. to me, that's not where I want to be in. i know i'm careless. i know i make mistakes. but to want to show that everything i'm doing is wrong is just...

makes me not want to try anymore. makes me not want to do anymore. makes me not want to be part of anything.


perhaps, that's what they wanted all along.