i don't know why my brain is wired to torture myself.

that the smallest things get blown out of proportion.

that i drag people into the fray and implicate them or put them in awkward situations where they have to explain themselves.

that i can't sit still and suffer the consequences of my stupidity and uselessness alone.



that i can't silence the voices to tell me to hurt myself instead of hurting others.


sigh. frustrating.