"you're a victim. they are the bad people. hurt them."

"don't hurt them. be a bigger person."

"you're so fucked up that you think you're the victim. how dare you accuse someone's blameless character for your flaws"

"you deserve all this. all the treatment. all the disregard. you deserve them all."

"you actually put someone down and use your condition as an excuse. you're worthless."

"since you're so fucked up, why do you care?"

"are you pretending to be care? why so self-righteous?"

"you don't deserve anything. not even grace."

"the only thing you deserve is failure and defeat and all the bad things that are happening to you."

"remember what she said? you are to be blamed for how you turned out."

"why do I even waste all this time talking to you?"



i no longer know if i want to shut the voices in my head out. perhaps. perhaps, they are reality. perhaps the situation not as distorted as L made them out to be.